don't hurt me please I've had enough (Mammon angst)

chap 53

Mammon pov

What the hell.... then my brothers just went into my head haa... I wonder if they noticed I'm gone.. probably not.. why would they care about a useless demon..

I looked around the room. Derek was gone to make some food

Ha.. but why is the room so nice? Arent we still in school. It doesn't really seem like he has parents.. I looked around the room was black, grey and white

I looked at his desk and one frame caught my eye.. "what the fuck" "isnt that my picture.. when I was sleeping?!" I said while whispering

With his brothers

They are still hanging out with harvey at 9pm but soon lucifer said "we should go it's getting late, we have school tomorrow"

Harvey looked at them "oh its 9pm already, time sure does fly fast!" He said smiling

The brothers smiled at him "well we should get going, bye harv" luci said

Asmo went to harvey and hugged him as harvey hugs back  "bye, see you tomorrow!" Harvey said

They all smiled and waved as they leave Harvey's house going into the car to drive home

Beel POV

I wonder how's mammon doing, I'll talk to him later  as a few minutes pass by they got to their house 

Lucifer opened the door and went inside mammon ha been quiet lately.. 

"I'm going to bed" belphie said "ok sleep wel" I said and the others nodded

I want food.. I wonder if mammon mad something  as I walk to the kitchen and opened the fridge I guess mammon didnt have any leftovers..

I sighed and took some cake I started to eat while I heard the others going up stairs to their room

About 30 minutes I finished eating the whole cake I get up and walk out the kitchen to the stairs

I pass by mammons room and decided to knock knock knock

No answer I knocked again no answer he much be sleeping I'll let him be

As I go to my room and decided to sleep I'll meet him tomorrow

Mammons pov

I fell asleep and woke up by someone hugging me I looks over to see derek

I freaked out and moved around which made derek tighten up the hug so I cant move

This is uncomfortable I dont like it..

Let me go

I soon got tired of trying to get him to stop hugging me and just admitted defeat for now

Now I'm starting to miss jan... when will they come back

As I think of her tears goes down face remembering a person who really cares for me but now shes gone

I wished ghost didnt have stuff like that
I missed when they would cheer me up

Now I had an itching sensation of me wanting to cut my self...

I'm so pathetic

I cant even try to over come my own problems..

I'm so stupid

Yes you are one of the voices said

I hated it I want to cut.. so I decided to keep trying to get out the hand cuffs it made me feel better I was getting hurt atleast

Derek woke up and saw me doing it he looked mad "what the hell do you think you're doing?!"as he held my hands to stop me "look at this now you're fucking hurt!" He said and I looked away

I didnt want to listen to him

He looked so mad to he got up and took some cloth and wrapped it in my hand it stopped me from getting hurt

Well fuck..

"You're so fuckings stupid now sleep. Dont you dare try that shit again!!" He told me sternly he was obviously pissed off

And he slept again I'm going to escape tomorrow he has school..

I soon fell asleep

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Stan beel fr hes so kind

I wanna kill harvey and derek so bad this fast but like that's be boring bc no plot so I guess I gotta wait

Also his escape may or may not work