don't hurt me please I've had enough (Mammon angst)

Chap 47

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He woke up at midnight oh gosh he looked for his phone at the dark

He made a book fall but he didnt care he just looked for his phone finally finding it he opened it decided to open his gc with his friends

"funny" friends

mon pie
Hi, guys

YuKIn be mine
Hi mammon, why are still awake its
2am.

mon pie
I woke just up from my afternoon nap
And why are you awake?

YuKIn be mine
I was just reading a bunch or stories and
Manhwa, sacrificing my sleep for this
But its worth it, 100%

mon pie
Ah that's a new thing i learned about you

YuKin be mine
Eh?, really. I mean i guess i do barely talk
Ahah
Also im changing my name its cringe

Mon pie
Replied to: Eh?,really. I mean....
↳Yea, you do barely talk
Sure you could change yours
Let me change mine too

(yuKin be mine changed their nickname to yuki)

(Mon pie changed their nickname to Mammon)

(Yuki changed derockie poo to derek the uwuboy >:)

(Yuki changes yuMINE to yummi yummy)

Yuki
perfect only the two has embarrassing names >:)

Mammon
Pfttttttt, amazing

Mammon
I'm getting tired bye Yuki

Yuki
Bye monmon, night
Like•seen

Mammon pov

As I finished talking to Yuki I turned off my phone I decided to get up and walk to my desk I lied to her about sleeping..sigh

I took out a paper and a pencil I did a few sketches he said this for an hour

He finished at 3 am looking at his drawing disappointed it looks so bad... I should work harder.. I can't let anyone see that I'm useless I should work hard on drawing.

He took out another peice of paper making a couple mistakes he crumples the paper and throw it

Got another one making it for a few minutes finishing it looking at it again and hating it

He did this cycle until 7am not sleeping

Its finally hinted 7:30am his last drawing for now was finished it looked a bit better

But for him it wasn't enough. Ot be honest his drawing is good for a person who just started a day ago

He got up and went to his closet taking out a long sleeved shirt hiding his cuts

His stomach once rumbles again he ignored it and just went to the bathroom to change

He changes and looks at himself in the mirror

Ugly
Look at those eye bags. pfttt
You look like shit
Look at you. You look better this skinny
You still look fat
Dont eat
This is why harvey is better look at you

Negative thoughts filled his head covering his ears since he was hearing his voices tears falling down his face

Am I really?..  he looks at the mirror again feeling overwhelmed it felt like he could see every single blemish he had he could see why he wasn't attractive

Now he thoughts harvey is really better..
As he takes his razor again

The razor was bloody he did a few cuts once again

1..
2
3
4
5..

He felt weak after the fifth one he stopped there placing his razor down the sink as he washed off the blood

He walks weakly out the bathroom to his bed

He laid down into his bed

Slowly letting the darkness take him

Dream..

"Darling, hello there" a woman said as he looks back he felt tears going down he ran to the woman hugging her making her giggle

Mammon looks at her as he said "I missed you.. where have you been" while tearing up

The woman brushed her fingers through his hair calming him down "I'm sorry sweetie, I really am im sorry leaving you with HIM" she said

She added "please stop doing this to yourself.. this is bad for you" as she holds mammons arms seeing his cuts

He looks horrified and started to panic "I-I I..  I'm sorry please dont hurt me.. please don't hate me" he said

"Oh I would never sweetie,I'll always love you no matter what" she said

Mammon looks at her and said "I love you too mom" he said after he said that she dissapeared making him scream mom

End of dream

He was panting and saw that he was in his room

He curled up in a ball and started tearing up again he missed her..

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Sad mammon just misses his mother his caring mother

Oh yeah tmr my birthday lol nov 26