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19 : Just a Kiss

"Yeah. He's just...I don't know. He'll only tell you. I'm sure he'll be alright." He said.

"Guys, when are you guys coming to the hospital?" Liam came over and asked.

"I don't feel like going for practice anymore without Niall." Louis said. "Should I go?"

"Your wish Louis." Zayn said.

"I feel...something like that will happen to me if I go there again." Louis said.

"That will NOT happen again. Go ahead." I said.

"Sure?"

"Yea. By the way Liam, what did you ask us?" I asked.

"When are you guys coming to the hospital?"

"I'll come at five in the  evening." I said.

"Okay, I guess we all can come by that time then?" Liam asked.

"Yup."

"Sure."

"Done."

"Don't forget what I told you. He LOVES you." Harry whispered and walked away with the others. "They're coming to my place today. So, we'll go walking."

"Oh, okay then. Bye." I said, and they walked away. I was blushing about the whole thing. What Harry told.

Mom came a few minutes later. I told her all about how the bloody message, how Lisa's dad thought I was the one who did it, and how she never told her dad about why I harmed myself.

"Your dad was just dazzling Audrey, that's why I fell for him." She said.

"And I never got to see him. How bad !" I said.

"Look, we've talked about this Audrey."

"But it still keeps bothering me mom. He shouldn't have just...wandered away like that for-..."

"Enough Audrey !"

"Mom, you don't get it. You just can't understand how I feel when I hear people talk about him like that." I said. I was crying a bit now.

"I get it, okay? I understand how it is like to live without a husband."

"And I understand how to live without a dad whom I've never seen my entire life." I complained. "They could hardly believe me when I said it, okay?"

"But they did believe it, didn't they?" she asked

"Yea, because they had no choice but to believe." I said. "How on earth did you even fall for him?"

"I told you. He looked fabulous...just dazzling."

"I can't believe you did that."

"What?"

"You can't just love someone by their looks. You should know whether they have feelings for people or not . Feelings for their own daughter.

"He loved you, okay?"

"Yea, but I never got to see that. "

"I told you, that wasn't his fault."

"I bet he's the only one like THEM. I'm sorry mom, but I can never love him."

She didn't speak after that. Neither did me. I just kept crying silently, but all she could do was nothing. She can't bring him back from the dead just for me to see him. I've never even seen a picture of him. Yes. That's right. Every time I wanted to see one, I just throw them on the floor and run away. I'm scared of him, because he kills me in my dreams.

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I just went straight up to my room and shut my door. I didn't even see when she left. I'm not angry at her, but, I don't know. I think I am angry now. A bit. It wasn't her fault that he died, but I still didn't like the idea of why I NEVER got a chance to meet him, my own father.

 I quickly had lunch, studied for a while and completed some notes. I took a nap, and woke up at four. I went down and sat on the couch. I didn't feel like doing anything. I felt so lonely without Niall. I just hope he'll be back to normal soon.

I was still amazed at what Harry told me earlier this day. I knew Niall had some interest in me, but Harry? I'm not judging him or anything but, I couldn't see any signs of it. And Niall on the other hand was the opposite.

I changed to my black jeans and white tee, and put on my black jacket. I tied my hair into a French braid. That's my favorite way of braiding my hair. I do it only when I have plenty of time, like I don't do it when I go for classes, because it requires a lot of patience and time. 

The winds were really chilly. It was a good thing I tied up my hair, otherwise this wind would've ruined it. I took a taxi and was off to the hospital.

The hospital was pretty crowded today. I went directly to the ICU and found Harry already outside talking to someone on his phone. Mrs. Horan was also there. She was talking to a doctor. I went and sat beside him.

"Oh hey Audrey. It was professor Denver. Just called to check out how Niall was." He said.

"Well?"

"Negative. You can go and see him if you want."

"Okay." I said, and went to see him.

"Only one person at a time mam." The nurse outside the ICU said.

 "I know...only I'm going in." I said.

"Who is it you wanna see?" She asked

"Horan. Niall Horan." I said.

The nurse led me in. There were a lot of other patients in there. Most of them were sleeping, some were awake and some were unconscious. She led me to a bed in-between two other beds. One bed was occupied by a little boy, and the other was an old man.

I sat on a stool beside his bed and took his hand. They were ice cold. He looked pale. Really pale. I could actually feel his veins now.

"Niall. Niall? Wake up. Look, it's me Audrey. Enough sleeping." I whispered." I know it's of no use speaking to you at this state but, I KNOW you're listening to me."

He didn't move, as if I expected him to, but in a small corner of my heart, I DID wish he moved. He just lay there, motionless, eyes shut, stiff and pale.

"Okay, I'm leaving. Bye." I said and was about to walk away, but I stopped and turned back hoping he woke up. But, he didn't. I went close to his bed and kissed him on his forehead and walked away seconds later.

Elsa and the others were there when I went outside. They were just sitting quietly not speaking to anyone. Mrs. Horan was nowhere to be seen.

"Still the same." I said in a low voice, and sat beside Harry.

"I don't want to see him like that." She said.

"Harry, tell me more about what Niall told you." I asked him.

"Now?" He asked.

"Why not now?" I asked immediately.

"Wait, what?" Elsa asked.

"Elsa, Niall likes her." Harry said.

"That's good news. Since when?"  She asked.

"Oh, um, long story. He didn't tell me since when, but yes he does." He said.

"Wow." Louis exclaimed. "I wish if he was here."

"Okay Harry, tell me." I asked again.

"Words can't describe him Audrey." He said. "It's just like...I don't know. But, he himself has to tell you that. But one thing I know, he definitely loves you. I don't think anyone else would love you like he does."