Home to you

Chapter 26

New York had its ups and downs. Though Tyler tried to convince the both of us that he had been drunk and that he was sorry, Connor didn't believe him and I couldn't disagree with him about that. I convinced connor to wait a least until he was home and film the video in a comforting surrounding. Playlist was over so quickly. We had such a tight schedule that we didn't see Tyler for the rest of the weekend which I was pleased about because I couldn't handel them fighting. As quickly as we landed in New York we departed again. My family on there way back to Australia Connor and I on our way to LA.
The whole flight Connor was tapping his foot in no real rhythm and I knew that he wanted to film the video as quickly as possible.
I mostly slept trough the hole flight. The whole weekend had been so stressful.
As fast as we got to Connors apartment he pulled me into a thight hug. My hands wander over his back down his spine and up again. I can hear his shaking breath, knowing that the stress of the weekend really got to him. I slowly patten his head like I would do hugging my sister, humming slowly into his hear. I couldn't tell how long we stayed in this position. Minutes passed and all I did was hum into his ear the love song I had written for him.
Connor untangles himself form me and mumble a quick "sorry." "You know you have nothing to be sorry for. Being there for you is my job." I say softly, my hand resting on his cheek. He rests his forehead on mine and breathes deeply. "I can't tell you how thankful I am for that." He leans forward and kisses me. Every minute I fall deeper for him. "Pizza and movies?" Connor asks and I just nod.
Not really paying attention to the movie. We're finally had time to talk about imported private things. It's the first time in weeks that we are really alone for longer than 20 minutes. "Its so stressful." Connor confesses while slowly biting into his pizza. I know the conflict he is struggling with. "I'm always afraid I slip up in someone's daily vlog or acted to obviously gay. I know that's stupid." He says and looks at his pizza slice. "It's not. It's fucking scary to come out." I say slowly. "But your not alone you know? You have me and amazing friends and your family." "Yeah I know... But I'm so relieved to finally accept myself and live with who I am and I'm fucking scared." He says and smiles weakly. I don't know what to say to him to make him feel better. I'm not wiser than him and I never struggled with my sexuality, I just always kind of knew. I slowly touch his knee. "Take your time. You don't need to rush making the video. We can just lock ourselfs here in the apartment and never leave it again." He looks into my eyes and I can see how thankful he is for my words. "Maybe I need some days off... Away from LA and definitely Tyler and all the other youtubers." He starts slowly. "Maybe we could just drive down to Minnesota visit my family over the holidays..??" He slowly adds and looks at me. "Anything you want princess." I say and lean forward and kiss him. He punshes me on the arm. "I'm not the little twink." He says laughing.
So the evening ended with cuddling on the couch and packing our stuff again because we would already leave for Minnesota in the morning.