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Chapter 34

My palms are sweeting. I nervously chew the inside of my lip. It's a nervous habit that I accustom myself the last weeks. We're backstage. It feels ice cold here. I rub my palms against my knees to stop them from sweating so much. "Everything will be fine. I promise you that." Connor whispers into my ear. But I'm scared any way. I haven't seen Tyler in weeks and I'm afraid it might show at the event. Or that he and Connor might get into an argument live on camera. I just nod slowly as a respond and we make our way in the direction of the studio. Connor staying behind not wanting to meet tyler. Just one second before Tyler and I get the go he leans closer and whispers "we really need to talk afterwards." And then just runs strait a head in the direction of the sofa we are planed to sit on. The hole event my mind is spinning around Tyler's words and I can feel myself drifting into my own thought now and then even in the middle of the interview. The time passes so fast and before I know it Tyler is leads me back to his backstage room. "Spit it!" He just hisses I can see the anger in his eyes. "What are you talking about?" I ask slowly not wanting to get into a fight with him myself. Tyler angrily takes off his jacket and his hat. "I want to know why I didn't hear anything from Connor or you since New York. You haven't been picking up your phone or Skype and I know you've been to LA a couple of times but you never visited me. So tell me what's going on? Because I can't be bothered being part of you little... What ever this is." He looks confused and angry I tried to stay calm but I could feel the anger boiling my blood, rushing through my ears, making my head dizzy. "Tyler don't tell me you don't remember..." I say contemptuous. "You outed Connor and my relationship in front of almost everyone we know to a time where only you and a few other people knew that Connor was gay. And don't give me that you don't know what I'm talking about look right now." I inhaled sharply. Tyler trys to say something, he looks confused but I just raise my hand and stop him. "Save it. If you hadn't, like always, just been to coughed up in your own stuff you might have seen him suffering with himself coming out to his audience. He had to do this because you couldn't keep your mouth shut. You were the first one to know and you betrayed his trust with being drunken at a party, being jealous of our intimacy. Is that a good enough reason for you to burst out anybody's secret?" I could feel tears of anger building in the corner if my eyes. "You ask why I didn't pick up the phone. How could I? How did you expect me to pick up the phone to the guy who almost ruined my relationship. Who should have keep our secret to himself. Who should have been my best friend through all of this. I needed you though all of this. I needed you advice and your presents. But I don't what you the way you are right now." I sniffed and tried to dry my face with my sleeve."I don't need you anymore." And with that I ran out of his backstage room. Away from him and away from all the problems that followed were ever Tyler Oakley showed up.

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AN: I appologise to everybody who loves Tyler. Please remember this is a fictional story!!!