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Chapter 23

"What did Caspar say when you got up and hugged him?" Connor asks sleepy while I cuddle deeper into his chest. "He just said that he is happy for us." I mumble half a sleep. I feel how Connors breath stops for a second. I weakly lift myself of off his chest so I can look him into his beautiful eyes. "No worries. He won't tell! He is actually pretty good at keeping secrets." I say and slowly rest my head on his chest again. "How does he even know?" Connor asks. "He knows me. He said he just saw it. But he promised he wasn't going to tell and I trust him." Connor sights. "I know... I trust him to." He says slowly and then kisses my hair. "I'm so glad I have you." He says and then I can hear his breath getting steady and he is falling asleep.

I pull out my phone dialing the number of the first person that comes to my mind. "Troye." He answers sleepy but at least he had picked up the phone. "Caspy." I say weakly near to tears. Suddenly he sounds awake right a way. "What's wrong? Are you alright? Are you hurt?" He asks quickly. I sigh and let myself slide down the wall so I sit on the floor my head between my legs. "I'm not hurt... Not physically anyways." I say slowly feeling a lumb in my troat. "What's up?" Caspar asks concerned. "I thought he liked me.... But he... He just." I hick up. Starting to cry. Caspar hushing through the phone trying to calm me down explaining me how much he misses me. "So I met him at some sort of cafe... And I thought he liked me..." I pause still hocking up. "But it turned out he just recognized me and wanted to become famous himself... And I thought for once somebody would actually like me..." The rest is probably ununderstandable for Caspar because I start to cry again but I firgured he got the picture. "Did I ever told you how my first girlfriend broke up with me?" He asks slowly I don't answer him so he takes it as a no and starts again. "You know I told you sometimes about her. Anna... Back in South Africa she was my first real girlfriend, if you know what I mean." He says. Pausing probably lost in the past. "Back then i thought I would be with her for the rest of my life... I really loved her... And then one week after we sleeped together she just broke up with me saying she would get back together with her ex boyfriend. I thought I would never get over her." "And did you get over her?" I ask weakly. "No.. Not really... But she was my first love... You just flirted with him right? And you are so much more stronger than me." I loudly sniff my nose, Caspar is right. "You right caspy." I say trying to smile. "Yeah Troye." And then he talks another five minutes about random stuff before hanging up and probably going back to sleep.

Lost in my thoughts about the past and a quiet snoring Connor cuddled up with me I fall asleep as well.

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AN: this to everybody who stuck around till now. It's kind of strange that my story has over 3.7 k reads... How did that happen? I really try to stay as close as possible to the real events but sometimes it is very hard picking up where there are cause of all the traveling... I will be continuing the story for a while I mean with all the traveling and the events happening (Troye walking at YSL in Paris etc.) so see ya?
P.S. My exams are next week so after that I think I may be updating regularly again!