Home to you

Chapter 30

It feels like a déjà vu. Just as the day before we stand in front of a to me unknown house in Minnesota. Just as the day before Connor rang the door bell and just as the day before a this time young woman opens the door and stares at Connor in disbelieve. "Connor your here?" She asks unsure. "Jap." He just says and hugs her. "This is Troye my boyfriend." Connor introduces me. "Troye sivan?" She asks. And giggles. I look confused "yes Troye sivan. Get over it Allie." Connor says and pushes her aside so he can enter the house. "Nice to meet you and thanks for kind of inviting us." I say smiling. "Yeah... Sorry... I'm a huge fan. I discovered your channel with Connor when I was visiting him in LA two years ago... I never imagined that you would be here... Come on in." She says with a genuin smile. I step inside behind Connor. He takes my hand in his and we follow Allie into the basement. In a room with some sofas and a bar. ten people are sitting their and all the conversation are silenced the moment Connor and I step into the room holding hands. "Connors Troye your made it." Jacob screamed from the end of the room holding a red cup already seamed buzzed. The situation seamed to go back to normal and after being introduced to everyone I relaxed a little bit. "So Troye you are playing beer pong against me!" Jacob practically screamed at me. "Ehhh I'm undereaged." I say quickly. "Yeah but technically your Australian so it doesn't count as an excuse." He says while giving me some ping pong balls. "Here have some balls..." He adds and smirks at Connor "eeeewww." Connor just comments and that starts laughing. So I'm practically forced into playing a drinking game where you need to be having some kind of sport affection against an athlet. Great. Of cause I lose pretty quickly against him. And after just this one round I can feel the alcohol getting to me.

I slowly and carefully return into Connors direction. He is sitting on one of the sofas talking to some guys I forgot the name of. I let myself fall onto Connors lap which must look strange because I'm taller then him. "I love you." I whisper in to Connors ear louder then I though because the guy starts to look sceptical. "Yeah me too." Connor says quietly and is aiming to kiss my cheek but I quickly turn my head so he kisses my lips. I can feel that some weight is leaving the sofa and the guy is giving us privacy. I sling my arms around Connors neck while I can feel his hands wander to my hips. I deepen the kiss. I forget everything. I forget that we are surrounded by people. My brain is blank. Until Allie squeaks "tronnor is real." Which brings me aproply back to reality. With wide eyes I stare apologetic at Connor. "I'm so sorry. I didn't think.." "It's okay Tro." I can feel tears forming in my eyes. I feel like an idiot. Like I should have known better. I clearly should have know better. Connor looks into my eyes and he probably sees that I'm about to cry. He quickly forces me to stand up from his lap takes my hand and leads me back upstairs. It seams as if he knows his way around the house pretty well. He leads me into the dark kitchen. "It's okay Troye." He hushed and slowly touches my cheek. I'm so thankful for his gesture to lead me upstairs and away from his friends so don't have to cry infront of them. i lie my head on his shoulder and cuddle deep into his neck. I feel my tears wetting his shirt but I can stop myself from crying. "I'm such an idiot." I cry into his neck. "No your not. We're in a save place. It doesn't matter." Connor whispered into my ear. "It does." I say and lift my head from his shoulder. "I'm such an idiot just because I had a couple of beer doesn't mean that I can let your cover down." Connor softly lies his hand on my cheek. "It doesn't. They all know we're together. Do you really think that I would have allowed you to kiss me when we would have been on a different party?" "But that's the point. We could have been on a different party." I say wiping away the tears of my face. "Tro... But we're not. We're in Minnesota in a basement party with my high school friends." He says softly while caressing my cheek. I breath heavy. I can feel my hands shaking. Afraid he's gonna change his mind and would be angry at me. Only the thought of fighting with him makes me burst out into tears again and cuddle back into his neck. I'm such an idiot. How is it possible that I'm so stupid.

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AN: sorry it took me so long to upload... Again....
Like always I'm not quite sure why anybody is reading my "story" but thanks to everybody who stuck around till chapter 30... O_O