snowdrop | 최범규

19 | it'll never be the same.

                                           D - 4

ever since the break up confrontation, Beomgyu wasn't the same. he skipped meals and spent his days sulking. he couldn't pick up his guitar or paintbrush to do anything.

he tried to knock on Lavender's door but she wouldn't answer. she was the only one on his mind. now that he was leaving in four days, he couldn't even bother bringing himself to pack. most of his things were packed up anyways.

Lavender was all he could think about. he went to the flower shop and was so glad he would see her pass by. she would see him for a second and walk away. she didn't want to talk to him and her glares threw daggers.

he worried for her. worried in itself was an understatement. the swelling that hid the eye bags grew darker with time.

Beomgyu's eyebags grew darker as well, but so did the hole eating him up alive. he couldn't bear the pain of the girl ignoring him. they both still loved each other and that was quite obvious.

the day they broke up, Lavender ran into Taehyun and cried her heart out all night. these past few days, she refused to leave her house. she hadn't even seen Taehyun ever since that night. her grandmother tried to talk to her but received little to no response.

everything felt wrong.

                                     *:･✧*: :*

night fell again, nearing 9 pm. Beomgyu sat on the steps of the flower shop. the snow was harsh today, as if it were mad at the boy too. Beomgyu tried to talk to Lavender but he watched her eyes water and walk away. his face fell in his hands as he sat outside on the porch.

a familiar blonde appeared in front of Beomgyu, looking down at him. the brown haired boy's eye bags had worsened, he hadn't eaten a real meal in days. he spent his time staring at the ceiling, honestly, his state was upsetting to look at.

Taehyun took a seat next to Beomgyu on the porch, feeling snow hit him cruelly.

"are you here to tell me you were right?" Beomgyu said in a monotone voice, looking down at his silver rings as tears fell to them. he didn't think he still had tears left to cry.

"no," Taehyun took out a cup noodles from the bag. "i came because i assumed you weren't eating." he handed him the noodles and mixed it for him. "glad my intuition led me here."

"thanks." he smiled and took a bite out of the first real meal he's had after days.

"you were right anyways."

"mm." Taehyun hummed disappointedly. "how's Lavender handling the news?"

"i wouldn't know." Beomgyu slurped and enjoyed the warm noodles in the cold weather. "she's ignoring me, but i can't even blame her. i was stupid to not tell her."

Taehyun sighed. "you didn't want to hurt her. you can't blame yourself for loving her." he looked down at his lap and sighing.

"what should i do, Taehyun?" Beomgyu looked to the left of him at the boy. "i leave in four days, with or without fixing everything."