I'll Be Yours Forever: RJ Caswen Oneshots

Letters to EJ (entry seven)

August 9 2019

It's been 12 days since I last wrote to you EJ.

I'm sorry I've been busy these past few days.

And i didn't really feel like writing or talking.

Gina flooded me with calls the whole week but I'm not answering those.

I just don't feel like I'm in a great place to talk to anyone right now.

Last week i walked in to you again. You smiled at me which i quickly returned.

I'm happy you're interacting with me again even in the smallest way.

But that didn't last long. 

I saw you with your arms wrapped in a girl yesterday.

Are you two dating?

And i hate to feel shit but why am I feeling like this?

You were never mine, neither I was yours.

Maybe you never felt anything for me at all.

Or maybe I am just over reacting.

I hope I get to talk to you EJ. I'm trying so much but you always walk away from me.

I want to hang out with you again.

Listen to this song and just look at the stars at night.

I wish you were here.

-Ricky

Author's note:

ik some of y'all are confused that they have classes at July and my dumb ass forgot that they're american lmao i was following the asian timeframe because i used to write those i'm so sorry hahaha and ik this is getting kinda boring but this is a long one shot i don't wanna rush things up