Everlasting Winter

I'm not ready

Todoroki POV

I wake up to my sister Fuyumi rubbing my shoulder. I slowly open my eyes to look at her.

"Good morning, are you ready for your first day of U.A?" She asks.

"No" I reply putting the blankets over my head.

"Come on Shoto it will be just like we practiced," Fuyumi says getting up off my futon. "I will be back soon," she says sliding open my door.

I grab my stuffed bunny, Bun-Bun. I hold onto him outside the blankets leaving my scared arms exposed. I normally wear long sleeves, but I wanted to wear my favourite pyjamas, but the top is short sleeved. The pyjama top says, 'say true to yourself'. It was a saying my mom used to say to me before she was sent to a mental hospital. I was staring up at the ceiling letting my mind go back into dream land. I was about to fall back asleep when my sister came back into my room.

"Shoto, are you ready to get up?" Fuyumi asks.

"No, I don't want to go to school," I whine turning on my side so my back was to my sister

"Just think about this as one of our practice days," Fuyumi replies rubbing my back. It really helps me feel better.

"But I know today isn't practice," I respond turning around to look at her.

"I know but let just do the routine," Fuyumi kisses my forehead then puts Bun-Bun on my dresser. "I will be back after I am done making breakfast," my sister says before leaving my room to let me get dressed.

It took me a couple minutes, but I eventually got myself out of bed. I went to my dresser and gave Bun-Bun one more hug before putting him back in his spot.

I walk over to my closet and opened the door. My uniform was staring me down, like it was mocking me. I panic and close the closet door. We got my uniform about a month ago so I could get used to wearing it. I took a couple of deep breaths before opening my closet again. I look at my uniform then close my closet door again. Why am I like this? Why am I so scared?

"I can do this, it's just like we practiced." I say opening my closet door.

I was about to grab my uniform when I froze. All the muscles in my body felt numb as if my father just beat me, I couldn't move; I couldn't stop staring at my uniform. I was stuck in my own head.

"Hey, Shoto" Fuyumi opens my door.

I heard her but my whole body was shaking. I couldn't talk.

Fuyumi came over to me. "Hey, it's okay," she smiles

"I'm sor-ry," I said with tears coming down the right side of my face. I can't cry on the left because of nerve damage from my scar.

"It okay, come on let's go sit down," my sister said putting her arm around my back to help guide me back to my futon. Once I was sitting down Fuyumi went back to my closet to grab my uniform.

"I'm sorry about my freeze up," I spoke up.

"It's fine Shoto, I know your freeze ups are out of your control," Fuyumi smiles.

"Thanks," I sniffle.

"I'll meet you downstairs once you're dressed," Fuyumi says walking out the door.

I pull my knees up to my chest putting my head into my knees. I could hear my siblings talking in the hall.

"Hey Natsuo, could you make sure he actually gets dressed?" Fuyumi asks

"Sure," Natsuo replies coming into my room.

Natsuo came over and sat next to me.

"Hey, Sho do you think you can get dressed?" My brother asks sitting on my futon.