His Blossom (AMBW)

𝙶𝚘𝚘𝚍𝚋𝚢𝚎

A/N: Idk I just imagine this song for the club part)

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I sat in my bed, watching the sun rise. It was impossible for me to fall asleep. After Kenji left his penthouse, I cried a bit and then went home. I couldn't sleep since then. Lucia tried to stay up with me, but ended up falling asleep in my bed. I couldn't sleep. Telling Kenji that I wanted to take a break was the hardest decision in my life. It hurt so bad. So bad. It's like all the oxygen was taken away from my lungs. But he was right, I was someone else the night before. I hurt Elaine in a horrible way. She was innocent. She didn't deserve what I did to her. She didn't deserve to die either. I couldn't handle my thoughts. What I did. Everything went to shit.

I decided to take a shower and redress myself. Kenji would come over in a bit. He was leaving and we just broke up.

Oh my god.

I couldn't stop myself from continuously sobbing. I basically just lost the most important person in my life. I did that to myself. Lucia woke up and we waited by the door. Kenji was close by. We didn't text, but Suki kept Lucia updated. My heart was pounding. For the first time in forever, I was scared to face Kenji.

The door unlocked and slowly opened. Kenji came in with a broad man dressed in a suit. He was at least fifty.

"Alexandria, this is Renalds. Your bodyguard." Kenji told me.

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~Kenji~
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"A body guard?" Alex asked.

"Yes. He'll keep you safe,"I told her.

It was hard to not get emotional when I saw her. The most monumental and influential person in my life had just shattered my heart. I know that it was for her wellbeing. I understood. I had to understand. I couldn't be selfish. She didn't deserve that. Not now.

"Thank you." She said gently.

She looked over at Lucia who nodded and exited the room. I turned to Renalds who stepped outside of her apartment.

"I'm so sorry, Kenji." Alex played with her fingers. "I-"

I walked up to her, hugging her. "I know."

"I love you." She cried.

"I-" My throat tightened up and tears clogged my vision. I sighed. "I love you more than you'll ever know."

We stayed quiet for a few minutes, and then broke off our hug.

"I have to go." I told her.

She nodded, "I know. I love you, Kenji. So much. I just need to get myself together. Find who I am. We'll make it back to each other. I promise."

I nodded. "You've been through so much, Alex. I understand why you did what you did. And I understand why you need space. I'll love you forever. Through whatever happens."

I caressed her cheek. I pulled her chin towards me, gently kissing her. She rubbed her hands up my body, grabbing my face. The kiss got a little deeper, but we both pulled away. It was for the best. Things would've gotten even  more complicated if we took things to her room.