Quelling the Flames

Respect (Official Chapter 3)

I have been practicing here for three days. Okay, may be just tring to practice because all those weapons are kind of scary as well as interesting. The whole time I had been observing the weapons, their parts for no reason in particular. Now today, I finally had plans to try something and that will be most probably bows and arrows because that's the only thing I practically know. I had a word with my mentor on this matter because I had seen others they were so good at their weapons and I was still bad at my comfort zone even. My mentor said to trust your instinct and I was more capable than anyone else. I know it is quite positive and accelerating but in my case nothing can accelerate me. Now, I think that I was stupid for actually being curious about those weapons as half of the population or almost everyone thinks I was mentally unstable. But it hardly matters. I had been crying secretly throughout the nights. I am seriously missing what I wasn't able to do in the past years or how many apologies I had to make to the different people. After seeing the kind of skills the other tributes had, I guess I stood no chance.
After hour long practicing, and acting like a sane person, I did made a progress with my arrows. In ten hits, it was only two times when had hit the center. But indeed to keep practicing until we are not dismissed, after all I should try to be a tough opponent for my fellow competitors. After all I don't want to live short; at least I wish to make it to the third day of the competition.
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Finally, I made such a quick progress, though I should not be airheaded, but I am so proud of myself. Its six hits out of every ten. Or maybe even more. It's like now I am able to understand this art, due a slight pressure on me of the game.

It just occurred to me that the rebellious felling which an erupted in my district may be there in other districts, it's only we need to be together. I was told to make allies and I have no problem except for one, I don't want to kill my own friend. I just cannot think killing the second tribute of my district leave it alone, having a friend .Because I truly believe in the magic of friendship though it should have been love but everyone has a different point of view. And also I don't want to feel weak because if I will lose I want to lose with respect.