Make You Believe (Niall Horan Punk)

Chapter 21 - Still The One

*Niall's P.O.V.*

After leaving Skye's house, I went home. I climbed the stairs to my room and sat on my bed, thinking.

Why do Skye and Monique think I'm still in love with Alicia? I don't love Alicia, do I?

No, I don't.

I hate her.

Don't I?

I reached under the corner of my mattress, where I usually hide things, and pulled out a stack of pictures of Alicia and I.

I looked through all of them. Some of the pictures were just us, some of us with friends. I saw a few of us with the cheerleaders and football (soccer) team at a party, back when I was on the team.

I laughed at some of the funny faces we were making, noticing Monique and Skye by Alicia's side and Lyndsey looking jealous of them.

I remember sitting with them at lunch and Alicia was never fond of Lyndsey. Lyndsey tried to hard to be Alicia's best friend, no, to be Alicia.

Alicia was always rude to Skye and Monique, calling Skye fat even though she's curvy, making fun of the way Monique talks and just being generally rude to them.

It was worse for Lyndsey. Alicia called her stupid, annoying, lame and a wannabe constantly, but Lyndsey still wants to be her. I don't get it. Why do girls want to be accepted by 'popular' girls that treat them like shit?

I looked at a picture of us at the winter formal and afterwards at a party at Nathan's house. Lyndsey threw a party too, but Alicia made sure no one showed up but nerds and band geeks.

The more I remember the more I realize how much a bitch Alicia is, especially to those closest to her... and Lyndsey.

I looked at a picture of us at prom, seeing Skye in a red dress, looking... hot.

I remember everyone checking her out, wanting to take her home. I even remember checking her out a few times when Alicia wasn't looking. She was one of the most beautiful girls there that night.

I continued looking through the pictures, remembering all the fun things Alicia and I did when we were together.

I guess I do miss her a little bit, but mostly her company. Even though she is a bit of a bitch sometimes, I do enjoy spending time with her.

I don't hate her as much as I wish I do, but love her?

Do I love her?

As much as I hate to admit it, Monique and Skye are right. I do still love Alicia. Not as much as I used to, but I do.

I'd never admit it though.

Even though I love Alicia, I don't think I'd ever want her back. I don't want to go through hell like I did before.

I shook my head, ridding myself of the thought of our breakup at the beginning of the summer, not wanting to relive the terrible memories.

I got up and stuffed the pictures back under my mattress, deciding to leave.

Not knowing what I'm going to do I looked down at a small, blank spot on my left arm.

"Time for a new tattoo" I said, grabbing my keys.
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(A/N)

Sorry it's short. I couldn't think of anything.

I'm also sorry for not updating for a while. I've been sick and have a cough that sounds like I smoke a pack a day. (I don't)

💋 -TVo