Forever lovers

Grieving

It's been a couple of weeks since I talked to Avery.

I haven't been going to my treatments or taking my meds.

I know that could make my brain go back bigger but i couldn't take myself to do it.

Kingston death is hitting me hard and I don't know what to do.

After Kingston funeral my mother gave me a note that Kingston made for me.

I haven't opened it cause I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

Avery have been checking up on me but nothings changed.

Harper went back to England after he recovered good.

It went from 3 to two still being in the hospital.

I heard Avery have made good progress but me I went down hill.

I'm just sitting at the nursery writing in my journal.

I've been at the nursery everyday after getting ready.

I just take my sketch book or journal and just sit here for hours.

My Ed has also came back due to me not eating.

My brain is also getting tired a lot so I get dizzy a lot.

Nurse Grace as come up here to check up on me but I didn't say or do nothing.

The only person I would want to come her is my mom but she never visit.

Then I heard she blames be Kingston death and that broke me.

So if I get out of the hospital I'll have no where to go.

The fact that she blames me hurts.

So I've been drawing and writing lately to ease my mind from all this stress.

"Hey dyl" my favorite person at the moment says in his new zeal and accent.

"Hey av" I smiled.

I have developed a crush in Avery but I don't I don't know if he feels the same.

A couple of weeks ago I finally told Avery what happened.

3 weeks ago:

"Avery can I trust you" I asked.

"Of course you could" he said turning around to me.

"Well you know how I was down 3 weeks ago" I said causing him to nod.

"Well my sister Kingston had passed away from suicide.

"Oh Dylan" he said moving close to me.

That when the tears started coming out.

"My sister Avery and it's my fault" I said crying.

He hugged me until I calmed down.

"I'm sure it's not" he said calming me down.

"I could've been there and I wasn't" I looked down.

"I could've save her but I was sick and still sick. It's my fault" I said looking up at him.

"Even if you wasn't sick Dylan this probably would've still happened" he said.

"But" he cut me off.

"No buts dyl you meant everything to her from the way you talk about her" he said.

"Avery" he cut me off once again

"It's my turn to talk and you listen" he told me.

I just nodded.

"I'm sure you could've saved her but then again you'll deal with a lot of deaths in life till you get one step closer to an happy ending. I mean you still got me" he smiled.

"Thanks but my mother blames me and my father moved. Plus they got an divorce" I told him.

"Fuck her and I know your dad is proud your still here and most of Kingston is proud" she said pushing my hair behind my ear slowly.

"You think so" I asked looking into his eyes.

"I know so" he smiled.

I smiled back at him.

I saw he was leaning in and so was I.

We was centimeters away from each other lips.

Avery moved his hand to the side of my neck before placing his lips onto mines.

His lips was soft.

He kiss me slow and I like that he did that.

After was pulled away we just smiled at each other since Avery had to go to his treatment.

Present day:

So yea.

He's been trying to get me to go to my treatments and take my meds but I always say no.

I feel bad cause he just wants to help me live longer and I'm shutting him down.

"So I only got a few more treatments till I could go home" he smiled.

"That's great" i said cheering him on.

"Yea and you could come back home if you start you treatments as well" he said trying to make me change my mind.

"No" i said.

"Dylan your health is not good anymore and your not eating anything" he stated.

"I don't want to" I said looking away.

"Fine but I'm gonna have to do this" he said pulling out his phone.

"Do what" I asked.

"I got your father number since he was calling and I told him what's going on, so he sent me this video to show you" he said going to his text messages.

"What why" I cut even say what I was going to once Avery put his phone in my hand.

"Play it" he said.

I pressed play seeing my father talking.

"Hey my dandelion you friend Avery told me what's been going on"

"I just want to say I'm proud of you for still being alive but I need you to do your treatments and take your meds"

"It hurt to bury one daughter but two it's gonna be hard and I don't want to that so please do your treatments and take your meds"

"You will always be my dandelion, my last baby"

"So please Dylan do the treatments and take your meds and eat something"

"Even though I'm not here just know I'm always supporting you and anything you do"

"I just asking you to do these things. Bye dandelion n, I love you" the video ended.

"You not doing them things are hurting everyone around you dylan" he said.

"I known it's hard but plus stop hurting yourself even more"

"It's hard you know the grieving it's hard" I said wiping my tears.

"I know but you'll get through it" He said to me.

"Really" I asked.

"Look dyl you gotta do you treatments or you'll get worse and I don't think Kingston would want that. I'll do them with you come on" he said putting his hand out.

"Really"

"Yes really like we was gonna do in the beginning" he smiled.

"I've been keeping my promise not it's time to keep yours" he said as I grab his hand.

"Thank you for being patient with me and doing that" I thanked him.

"Oh it's was nothing but now it's time to get back"

"Oh and I'm proud of you Avery for keeping your promise"

"Well thank you my lady" he bowed.

I just rolled my eyes as we walked into the radiation room.

"Oh thank gosh your back Avery was getting in my nerves" doctor dove said.

"I'm glad I'm back" I smiled.