Part 6

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•I Sleep To Stay Alive•

the loneliness wraps around my body
like a warm blanket on a hot day
that i try to kick and kick to get off me
it rather stay and watch me sweat
the light puddles of perspiration on my neck
drip slowly one after the other
the anxiety in my body
won't ever go away so i try
to steady my thoughts
and get a goodnight sleep
knowing i'm alone and accepting the feeling
i didn't choose to be in this situation
neither did i choose to be the strong friend
but here i am
wanting to be alone from everybody
when they won't even notice anyway
my presence doesn't matter anymore
my dark shadow stays when i leave a room
you could just feel the depression
on my skin
and breath
and face
but still nobody asked
how i was doing ...
how have i been ...
are you ok ?
no, i am not
to feel alone in a world full of people
and still be the first one
to ask a person if they're ok
i sleep all day to past time
and to close my eyes and get away from the world i live in
i haven't been living to be happy
i've been living to get shit done
my age requires responsibility and maturity
but all i really wanna is be somebody's teddy bear
my nap takes over
like my own personal superhero
saving me from myself
until i wake up again
and is faced with my worst enemy of all time
when i have to to face the world again

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