•How Do U Feel With All That Thickness?•
To all my thick, Curvaceous ladies out there
here's a question ......
do u ever get offended when somebody u haven't seen in a long time tell u
oh my gosh, you've gotten so big !"
or "look how much you've grown !"
and this one kills me !
"is that my little girl ? the tiny little morgan i used to rock to sleep ? well, my have u gotten big!"
big
big ?
it's that one word that knocks the smile right off my face
but i keep it on to be respectful
if only the adults now and days
knew how to introduce themselves
what do u mean big i wanna ask
the size of my breast i didn't ask for ?
the thick thighs that got passed down to me but seem to skip my older
sister ?
or is it the butt that makes me look older than i am ??
which one ??
the feeling of wanting to hide my body in my clothes
comes back all over again
u didn't think i noticed ?
i was the only girl in my friend group that had the biggest boobs, the biggest butt and to make it even worse
i was tall
so i couldn't Necessarily hide it well
especially not with the clothes i had in my closet
i didn't have it like that so i worked with what i had
i remember
in middle school
everyday i wore a jacket
everyday
even when i was in pe and had to run
a mile in 100 degree weather
bc i knew my boobs would bounce like no other
not only would they make me uncomfortable but also the people around me
if i had a dime for every time i wanted to say sorry for my figure
an inevitable piece that i couldn't help
my mom and aunties would hate when i say "i have a stomach or i need to lose weight"
they would say back to me "girl u ain't even got no stomach at that age"
and for a moment, i felt better
but all that went away when i went to school
i saw otherwise
all the girls either had no tummy or
was the "average weight" for their age
me being the youngest out of 3 girls, i guess everything came early to me
but i wouldn't take anything back
bc Being curvaceous came in my culture
all around me was thick, big boned women
i was used to it
and with my experience i wanna make girls like me feel loved
in every setting they walk into
it's not abnormal that girls aren't built like twigs anymore
we shouldn't have to feel uncomfortable when we walk into a room
and hope people aren't looking at my boobs that naturally sit out
or our butt that has a shape of its own
we can't help it
but we are going to learn how to love it
so accept us, with all that we come with
YOU ARE READING
Morgan's POV
PoetryA peek inside my mind of what I go through but never say out loud. This is the closest my poems will go out to the world but this is a small step in the right direction. I hope you like it here. 🌷
