Morgan's POV

Part 13

•A Letter To God•

i wonder did god know what he was doing when he made me.
was i just something to do for the moment ?
was i a plan set in stone ?
was i a blessing to be made for some people and the world itself ?
i like that one. i'm just going to assume he knew what he was doing and it would be a good outcome for him and me.
see, there's this thing called depression and it can make u feel like shit.
make u feel like u don't even need to be here.
on earth.
or in your parents arms when they're crying their eyes out for u to feel better.
it makes u question everything.
even your own existence.
but i am somebody's child.
i was held for 9 months and named a name that a family couldn't wait to call me.
so, was is it God ?
please tell me.
so i know where to go on and continue.
bc i have a light that i was told once.
and i would hate more than anything in the world for that light, to go out.
before i even use it.
so please tell me.
my purpose

*writing this as a Christian girl that I've been all my life, I know that God does everything with intent. I was just in a really (really) bad place in my life at the time, where I even started to question the reason why I was made. Everyone goes through stuff and this is one of the many reasons, I decided to let people in and read one of my most prized possessions. Poetry is my escape and allows me to express the unexplainable ways I feel and not be judged. This is a safe place with no insecurity or doubt- just love. ❤️