I Broke His Heart Because I Had To, Not Because I Wanted To

Chapter Twenty One - I did it for you

Chapter Twenty One

I did it for you

   When Nat had calmed down, I looked at him and said "You see? I did it for you, I didn't want you moping and grieving af...after." I said, Nat rubbing circles on the inside of my wrist with his thumb. Nat nodded. "And do you want to know the truth?"

"What?" Nat asked.

"I miss you. I've missed you since the day I broke up with you, it killed me doing that. I didn't want to. I miss you and..."

"I love you." Nat finished for me.

"Yeah, I love you, Nat." I hugged him and started to cry on his shoulder. He pulled me onto his lap and comforted me while I cried. I cried into his chest, holding his hand and squeezing it tight.

   When I'd finished crying, I looked up at him and sat "Nat?"

"Mmmm?" He asked.

"Will...will you take me back?"

"Yes, my beautiful, of course I'll take you back. I never let you go. I told you that I had, but inside I still had that part of you that made me smile and laugh." I smiled and hugged him.

"Thank you." I whispered into his chest. "Thank you." Nat then started to kiss my neck. He kissed my neck on the opposite side to which I had had the love bite a while ago. He then started to nibble at my neck and make me smile. After, I started to kiss him on the lips tenderly, turning so my legs were either side of his and wrapping my arms around his neck.

   As we kissed, I felt a sharp stab in my abdomen. I sighed and ignored it, deepening the kiss. Nat pulled away. "What is it?" He asked.

"Nothing." I said, wincing at the worsening pain.

"You need to tell me." I burst out laughing as he said that. "What?" He asked.

"That's what you said the day I passed out, it just made me laugh."

"Oh, okay."

"But, seriously, what's up?"

I sighed and put a hand to my abdomen. "I've got abdomen pains."

"Is there anything I can do?"

"No. Actually, yes."

"What?"

"Kiss me." I said seductively, leaning closer to him and putting my arms on his shoulders. As I was about to put my lips on his, he put his hands on either side of my waist and held me back. I sighed, moved his hands from my waist and returned to my original position on Nat's lap. Sighing again, I wrapped my arms around my stomach and lent against Nat's chest.

   A small thought popped into my mind as I sat nestled up in Nat's lap. "Nat?" I asked.

"Yeah, Mel?" Nat said, his arms wrapped around me.

"You can't tell anyone."

"What?"

"You can't tell anyone. Hardly anyone knows and that's how I'd like to keep it for...a while. Okay?"

Nat sighed and said "Okay, hun. Who else knows?"

"You, Lou, Sal, the teachers and a few family members in Kent."

"Okay. Wait, how did Lou find out before me?" Nat asked, pretending to be shocked.

"Because Lou and I were talking about why I wasn't with you and why we were avoiding each other and it just sorta'...spilled out."

"Oh, okay."

"You're not mad are you?"

"No. A little sad, but I'll survive." His eyes glassed over as he realised what he'd said and muttered a light fuck under his breath. "Sorry." Nat whispered to me before resting his head on my shoulder. I kissed his hair and told him that it was okay.

   "I'm sorry. I should have told you." I said after a minute of comfortable silence.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Go for it."

"Are these abdomen pains to do with your...your Cancer?"

"Yeah. It's why I've had so much time off of school. I get abdomen pains, fevers, I lose weight and I also get back pains. As you can see, my life wasn't the greatest...until now." I said, turning my head and kissing Nat. He kissed me back and stroked the small of my back. I ran my fingers through his hair, scruffing his lovely, slightly wavy, deep brown locks. We kissed and kissed, ignoring my abdomen pains and paying as much attention to each other as humanly possible. Nat and I stood up, him leaning against the wall, me kissing him and rubbing my hands over his chest. Nat unzipped my dress, I pushed the straps over my shoulders and stepped out of it, letting it fall to the floor. I then pulled Nat's shirt off of him and said "At least it'll be honest." He smiled, turned me around and started to kiss the back of my neck. He took his trousers off and then we got into his bed, stripping off our underwear then.