No More Mistakes #Projectnigeria

Chapter 38

Chapter 38

AYODEJI'S POV

  I was silent for a while.
“No, I haven’t but I…I will” I replied.
“Ayo, would it be better if I go with you?” Omolara asked.
“Yeah” I replied.
“Ayo, come on. Stop it, we don’t know if you have it so stop looking like it’s already confirmed”
“If I have it?” I asked finally looking into her eyes. She held my hands.
“Then we will work it out” She replied. I shook my head “no”, it would not be far having to suffer with me.
“Lara, if I have AIDS, I will deal with it on my own. It’ll be unfair on you, you deserve to be happy”
“Ayo, so you want to get rid of me. I’m already married to you, we have a child together and you think I would lose more”
“Lara, you don’t get it, you don’t understand”
“Then make me understand! Make me understand that you want to suffer alone like I’m not here. Ayo, love is being strong not just for yourself but for the one you love” she replied.
“I don’t want you to manage to be with me, I want you to love me. I want to give you all of me for real this time and if I have AIDS, I can’t give you that. I did this to myself” I was scared, my vision was blurred with tears.
“Ayodeji, you are not perfect. You need help and I’m going to help you. You are not walking this path alone, okay?” she assured me and I nodded.
“Let's be positive now” she said. She was so perfect to be with someone like me. I was so overwhelmed with emotions, I kissed her. She looks surprised at first but later leaned into the kiss, she kissed my neck.
“Hmm, are you sure you want to go there?” She stopped and chuckled. I wanted to go there but unlike before, I didn’t want to do it for fun, I wanted to do it because I love her.
“Ayo, if you weren’t beaten that day, if that day wasn’t terrible will you have come to me?”
“No” I replied and I could immediately see the disappointment in her eyes “because I was blinded by my stupidity, you are so special and I get that you still find it hard to believe what I say, I don’t blame you. I’m a mess a big one but I’m trying, I swear it’s hard but I’m trying. I’m sorry I had to go through a terrible experience to realize I was doing something wrong. This time I want to win your heart” I said looking directly into her eyes.
“Have I won yours?” she asked. I couldn’t believe she asked that question. She was willing to stick with a messed-up person like me and she was asking if she won my heart.
“Of course, you most definitely have” I replied. We cooked dinner and are, we talked. Eriayomi had woken up so I played with her until it was late and Lara had to go to her room with the baby.

  I was able to book an appointment with a doctor for the test. Lara didn’t go to work that day, she dropped Eriayomi at her parents' house. While the doctor drew my blood from my arm with the needle and syringe, Lara held my hands rubbing her thumbs over them. She could tell how scared I was she was trying to calm me down.

“Doctor, please let her be the one to tell me the result” I said and the doctor nodded. Lara and I sat in silence as the doctor gave the nurse my blood sample.
“You are a supportive wife” the doctor, Dr. Mark said. He smiled at Lara and she smiled back.
“Yes, she is” I agreed with him.
Soon, the result came. The doctor and Lara went out of the office. The anxiety I felt in my seat was unnerving. I tapped my hands continuously on the table.

The door opened and immediately saw Lara's red eyes with tears streaming down. I began to panic, I was already crying and stamping my feet.
“You don’t have AIDS”  Lara said. I couldn’t believe my ears.
“What? Then why are you crying?” I was so confused.
“I wanted to give you a heart attack and I think a good job at that” she replied.
“Can you imagine? I was afraid” she showed me the result, it was true I didn’t have AIDS. I was so lucky and I was grateful I had someone to look out for me.