Bad Girl [GirlxGirl]

19)That Awkward Moment When

Ren's POV

'That awkward moment when you have actual sex with your fake girlfriend. Holy fucking shit it was hot though. Her tongue. Her fingers.'

I moan softly at the memories of last night. Tay snores away dead to the world. Like the previous night, we're tangled together but with a lot less clothes and with Tay possessive hand over my mound.

'I think I crossed the line.'

I'm in full panic mode. I roll out of Tay's embrace.

"Wha? Whassa matter with you?" Tay slurs. She sits up with her bare breasts out. I slowly lick my lips as I see the pink hard tip nipples.

"I gotta go." I say tearing my eyes away from Tay. I can't find my underwear so I just go commando.

"Huh? What about church?"

"I'll meet you there." I say flying out the front door. In my manic flight, I plow into a body falling roughly onto to the ground.

"Oof! Slow down, where's the fire love?" Trev laughs. I get off him giggling till I start crying.

"What's wrong, girl? From all the noise heard I last night and this morning, I thought you'd be the happiest woman in the world." Trev teases.

'How do I explain that I'm using his best friend to win a bet? How do I explain that I crossed the line? I fucked up. Big time.'

"Nothing. Just nerves. We have to go to church with the Reillys." I reason. I wipe away my tears.

"I bet. They're unbearable. It'll be fine though. Tay will be with you."

"Yea. I'll see you guys at lunch?"

"Definitely. I'm in need of a home cooked meal. On a serious tip, I'm a good listener and I'm here for you. You're one of us and we take care of ours. Always remember that." Trev says walking me to my door. He opens the door for me and sends me off with a gentle kiss on my forehead.

'I know Trev was trying to cheer me up but I feel worse.'

Some way some how, I made it back to the dorm. Luckily, Ann isn't here. I strip quickly and hop into a cold shower. Showers help me think.

'I've got to tell someone. I need advice. I took on a bet I can't afford to win or lose. How'd I get myself into this? I know just the person to call.'

Tay's POV

I run down the steps fresh out the shower. My poor stomach groans as I enter the kitchen. At the early hour of eight, only Trev and I are up. I pull a bowl and spoon start eating cereal.

"What happened last night? Ren ran out of here like a bat out of Hell." Trev questions as I chomp on.

"Nothing really. I mean we fucked for the first time. That could be it." I reply nonchalantly. I chase the last bits with the spoon then slurp the remaining milk.

"That could be it?" Trev mocks.

"Yea. What's your problem?"

"What's my problem? My problem is no one fucking flees the scene after a night of sex. She looked terrified." Trev shouts.

"What's with the third degree?! Who's side are you on?!" I yell back.

"Fuck this and fuck you, Trev! I'm out." I say stomping out the door with just boxers and a t shirt on. Fortunately, I grabbed my keys on the way out.

'Who the fuck is he to lecture me? He doesn't even know the situation. Just because Ren sheds tears doesn't mean I'm automatically wrong. And why was she crying? She knew what we were doin; she wasn't that drunk. How was she carrying on if one of my best friends is upset with me? What if she says rape? Holy shit! I hope she doesn't think I raped her. I've gotta talk to Ren ASAP.'

I bypass home and jet over to campus. In my haste, I plow into a girl wrapped in a towel. I pull her up setting her on her feet while mumbling a quick sorry. I skid to a stop in front of Ren's door. I catch my breath a bit then start knocking.

"Damn. Hold your horses." Ren calls through the door. I brace my hands on the door frame.

"Tay." She gasps. Ren is half dressed. She has a nude bra on and a black pencil skirt. I can't help myself; I lift her off her feet and start attacking her lips. Ren meets and we trade bruising kisses. I reluctantly pull out of the kiss. Ren's legs are around my waist.

"You know what happened, right?"

"Huh?" Ren asks dazed.

"We had sex. You remember?"

"Of course. I wasn't completely wasted."

"Then why did Trev and I get into a huge fight?" I say sitting in a desk chair. Ren.stays on my lap straddling me.

"I'm sorry. It's just that I got carried away this morning. He caught me when I was leaving. I'm sorry that you two got in a fight." Ren says damn near in tears.

'Oh no! I don't know how to deal with tears?'

I delicately rub her back."It's fine; I'll sort it after church. In the mean time, we have to talk."

"About?" Ren asks defensively trying to get off my lap. I tighten my hold.

"Quit it. I know last night was more than sex for you and that's ok. I'm sorry that I was buzzed when you woke. If I wasn't we wouldn't be here right now."

"For me? What was it for you? Just a fuck?" Ren drops eye contact.

'What was it to me? Dunno.'

"Honestly, it wasn't just sex. I dunno what it was but that's beside the point."

"What is your point?"

"My point is this, we, are fake. We shouldn't have had sex and we're not going to again."

"Why not?" Ren demands.

"Because look how upset you got. Shit, look how upset Trevor got!"

"What if we were real? Would you change your mind then?"

"I would. Don't dwell on the maybe or what ifs."

"Can we try to be real?" Ren pleads looking into my eyes. She gets off my lap giving me distance I desperately need. I run fingers through my hair.

'Me someone's real, actual girlfriend. No cheating and being with someone. Something heavy and substantial. Could I? I like Ren and everyone already thinks we're serious. Plus she met the Reillys. If I can't try with Ren then who could I try it with? No one.'

"Ok." I whisper.

"Just ok? I like you Tay; I really do. I didn't anticipate this. Trust me."

"I do trust you which is why I'm willing to try. I like you too." I cross the room in two easy strides and pull her into a hug.

'That totally, frightening not so awkward moment when your fake girlfriend becomes your actual girlfriend. I knew sex would change things.'

Author's Note: Soz about the shit quality of the song. I'll change it in a day.