* Discontinued series* The Last Apple. A kindergarten fanfic

Ch 24 The anxiety test

Kid Pov
We were waiting in the doctor waiting room for my turn for my anxiety test. My breathing was getting harder, and my heart was breathing rapidly. What was taking so long? What if I have anxiety? Will by friends keep being my friends? Will me and Y/N change? God why does my stomach hurt? I started to play with my hands and let one of my foot tap the ground. Y/N noticed and told me to some slow long breath, after a good ten minutes. I was no long breathing harder and my heart was somewhat normal. But my stomach did continue to turn, which was unfortunate. After a decade of waiting, it was finally time.

" Adam Y/N please" the doctor called. We got up and follow him to the room. I sat on one of those bed things and Y/N took a seat on a chair near by. The room was your typical doctor room. With the only difference being the added poster about anxiety, and mental health. Doctor took a seat at his computer, and typed some stuff on to the computer " Ok I going to need you first and last name please" he ask " Adam Player, I mean Adam Y/N, sorry I trying to get use to this name now" I told him, god great now I feel stupid. " I fine, now I going to need a birthday" he ask " June 5, 2011" I told him. " Ok, so I guessing your six right. Your a little bit on the younger side to be having anxiety, but it's perfectly fine." He ask and continue to type. I nodded yes, he finished typing and turn to see me. " Ok Adam my name is Doctor Nickberry. Now before I give you the anxiety test, I want to ask you both a few questions ok."

I both nodded yes. I liked him so far, he treats like a adult. " So Adam, what do those attack feel like to you." " It like running for race. Each step gets harder and harder and even if I try to push forward. There like this force pushing me back away from the end line. My breathing get harder, my heart beats fast. The room feels like it falling and everyone is watching me even if there no one there." He typed the information down "what is you opinion on you anxiety so far?" I wanted to speak, but instead I felt like crying. So I did. I don't know why I did that. But it felt like the right thing do at the moment.

Y/N Pov
Adam was suddenly crying, I don't know why, but that don't matter at the moment. I went to sit next to him, and try my best to comfort him. " I just sick and tired of all of this. I don't want to worry all the time. I don't want keeping have panic attack. I don't want to keep fighting my demon over and over again. I want to end this horrible loop and just be a normal kid or at lest as normal as I can be"I put the boy on my lap, and let him cry as I hugged him. " Hey hey, shhh, everything is going Adam. Listen I get it, anxiety sucks, but I here to help" said the doctor trying to comfort him.

After a few minutes he calm down, and the doctor when to get the test. " You were crazy back in the cafeteria, it was as if you unleashed your momma bear side" he joke with small smile. " Well I did have a bear cube of my own to protect" I joke, and tap his nose. " Hey I no bear cube; I my only bear that doesn't need a mommy bear help" he argue. " Sure, I mean it not like a few minutes ago you disprove that fact" I sarcasm answer. " That does count." I roll my eyes " That doesn't count, right" I continue the sarcasm.

Shortly the doctor came " Ok I got the test, mom I going to ask you to wait outside with me." I step out with the doctor, and after a few minutes, Adam let us know we can come in again. The doctor took the test and left to see the results. After a few minutes the doctor came back " Ok so the test did say Adam had PTSD, and generalized anxiety disorder, or GAD." " Wow that so shocking" Adam said now being the one with the sarcasm. " Well I do have a few more questions to ask" continue Dr Nickberry " Ask a way."
Kid Pov
" Send it said you have PTSD; I was wondering if you would be free to tell me about it." " Oh you see my parents abandoned me when I was 4. I had to live on my only, and go though all kinds of horrible like the ti-", I stop, and just seat with my body shaking, as memories from the time loops played my mind. All the blood and screaming. The many cold hunger night alone. All the nights of me crying in bed wondering when will this real life nightmare ever end. The fights from my demon, and cuts on my arm added on.

"Adam" Y/N called out. I turn to the two, " Adam you don't have tell if you don't want to" The doctor told me. I nodded, Y/N and NickBerry started to talk about ways to up symptoms and-..................treatment. " I would look in to therapy for him" the doctor suggest. " Can't you just give me a pill" I interrupted. They stopped, and both were surprised at my answer. " Well therapy would be the best long term plan, and we don't recommend pills for kids" he answered. " Remember how we talked about this before" reminded Y/N.

I was tick, why are they making me do it the hard, and long way. Sure I guess it could help, but the pills are much easier. " So your telling me that I have to take the long, and hard way out when there a easier less painful way" I ask in tense a voice. " Now Adam, I understand that this is a lot to process, especially at a very young age but-" he gently try to calm me. Ok he just lost some points. "Understand....understand...... UNDERSTAND" I argue, and tears fell down as I continue on. " I sorry, but your telling me. I have to take the hard way just because it will 'help me better' after all the work, and pain I been thought. I had to deal with, PTSD, panic attacks, fighting my demon multiple times, not killing myself, my past, my guilt, friends, and don't forget." I pull my right arm shelve down to reveal the cuts." This wonderful things." Wait what did I just do. I looked to my arm then to them, then my arm. They could see the cuts on my arm. What did I just do? I quickly pull my shelve back up, and act like that never happened.

Y/N put both her hands at her mouth, and eyes wide open looking at my arm. The doctor pull my arm, and looked at it " You haven't been having those thoughts have you" he ask. I unfortunately shameful nodded yes, Y/N try to calm herself down, but soon started to cry a bit. A knock on the come " Sir your next group it waiting for you." " Alright just tell them to give me a minute." He answered. He turn back to the two of us " I must as would I love to continue, you guys must be going."

He got a candy from the candy cup on his desk and hand it to me " Your life is more important then you think kid." I took the candy, and Y/N got some papers. When we got home, I run to my room. Lock the door, and just lay there in bed with only my thoughts and me. My life was changed for the worst. Yet somehow, showing those cuts felt like the right thing to do. I put Phoebe ( that what I named my stuff cat) on my stomach, and ask her one simply, but also not simple questions

" why is life so hard? Or is it just me?"

A/N So uhhhhh, next chapter in 3 day like normal. And you will be getting advice from your dad in the next chapter about Adam. That all I got to say.