Why was he holding his hand (when he's supposed to be mine?)

Chapter 25 - In My Memories -

Will and Mike had slowly made their way back to Mike's car after Mike had finished throwing up. Obviously neither of them was in any state to drive, so they stumbled into the backseat. Mike lay down on the comfortable cushioning of the wide backseat and sighed. Will stood there awkwardly. "C'mere." Mike mumbled holding his arms open for Will. Will was to drunk to realize it was probably a bad idea to fall asleep in Mike's arms. So he crawled into the car and lay down on Mike. The only way they could both fit in the seat was to be pressed right into each other.

Mike stared at Will smiling. "We never hug anymore. We used to hug all the time as kids. I miss that." Will nodded sympathetically, "I didn't want to make you uncomfortable." Mike smiled at him then grinning whispered in his ear. "You're pretty." Will's jaw fell open and he blushed. Had Mike just called him pretty? Mike was drunk he remembered Mike didn't know what he was doing. Mike had kissed him earlier. Then looking over at Mike he realized Mike had fallen asleep. Will curled his body closer into Mike's deciding he was going to treasure this one night. "You're pretty too Mike." He mumbled, and then fell asleep.

Mike woke up to the worst headache of his life and a killer pain in his neck. The sunlight streaming through the windows of the car was doing nothing to help the situation until he looked down. Holy shit. Will was in his arms sleeping peacefully. Will was in his arms. Mike felt a bright red blush creeping onto his face at the sweet boy he was holding. Then he remembered last night. He had kissed Will?

Why had he kissed Will? He wasn't gay he didn't like boys. Why had Will kissed him back? He remembered the kiss and smiled fondly. That hadn't felt like any kiss he had before. When he had kissed El she had felt soft and sweet, and she had giggled while they kissed which he had liked. But there was no romantic attraction with El he realized. There was nothing when she had broken up with him. That's how he realized he hadn't loved her. Then with Jennifer, he had only been kissing her to make Will upset. That had worked, he thought to himself.

When he kissed Will it was like his whole world lit up. It felt perfect and it felt right. But he wasn't gay. Maybe it was just because they were such close friends, or maybe he had just missed being in a relationship. But he wasn't gay, he would never kiss another boy. It was just Will he kissed. Not that he wanted to anymore, well maybe.

Okay he reasoned, even if he did want to kiss Will that was just because of their close friendship. You spend that much time with someone, and you know everything about them. It can be confusing. You can wonder if maybe they feel the same way. Then maybe you get drunk one night and kiss them and they kiss you back. That's not weird. Mike continued to rationalize his feelings all while holding Will. His train of thought stopped when Will began to stir.

"Morning." Will muttered, a pause then. "Ow." Mike chuckled softly. "Yeah I thought that might happen. You were wasted last night." Will smiled at that then, "I'll have to take your word for it I don't remember anything." Mike's face fell for a moment. He didn't remember anything? Not even the kiss Mike had been pondering over since he woke up? "Nothing much happened besides you being very drunk." Will smiled still looking a bit confused. "I think I kissed someone." Will sat up moving out of Mike's lap and holding his head in his hands. "Shit, I've got a killer headache." Mike smiled weakly. For some reason he did not want Will to remember the kiss. "I saw you with David that night, maybe you kissed him." Will nodded still looking unsure. "Yeah maybe."

Mike got out of the car and stretched. He assumed the rest of the party had found their ways home or were still passed out somewhere. He would call them when they got home. He walked over to the drivers seat and turned the car on. "Let's go home Will." Will nodded and got into the passenger seat. Got any Tylenol in here? Mike tapped on the glovebox and Will poured out a couple pills. He placed on in Mikes outstretched and two in his own mouth. Both boys smiled peacefully as Mike drove Will home.