Dandelions | Yeongyu

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"You want to build a blanket fort? Is that something that you'd like?" Beomgyu looked to him with sad eyes, trying so hard to keep himself collected. It was too risky to be vulnerable with Yeonjun. With his guard up, he nodded yes. Yeonjun sent him a empathetic smile as he took a step closer to him going in for a hug. "Is this okay?" He asked as soft as he could while he brought the boys head into his chest, very gently and slowly wrapping his arms around him. Beomgyu couldn't speak, he was now mute but that didn't stop Yeonjun from holding him warm.

"You know I always love you right?" That statement stung in his ears, how bad he wished he could say the same but through the emotional abuse he has already went through he just couldn't. "It's okay, I know it's hard to say it back right now." There he goes again, reading his mind.

"Yeonjun.." Beomgyu mumbled looking up into the tallers eyes. "Yes baby?" His heart was shattering more and more with each sweet name spoken to him. Why did he even call for his attention? He was about to speak about what happned with Soobin, just maybe he would understand and he could rid his guilty conscience. Just maybe..

No even when he tried to speak longer he couldn't. Yeonjun could never find out.

Yeonjun just sighed and planted a slow kiss on-top of his head. "Thank you again for coming tonight Gyu." He said once more before pulling away. The lose of his contact was cold and made the hairs on Beomgyus skin stick up. He couldn't take anymore, he broke.

Beomgyu stood there still, looking to the floor with a quivering bottom lip, a huge frown, and puffy red cheeks. His eyes were consumed with tears to the point he could no longer see. His breath was taken away from him and his fingers along with his toes went numb. Soon his whole body was numb but Yeonjun didn't even notice.

The other has already turned away from him going to the direction of the bathroom. "I'll run you a bath, I know that always helps your nervous." He called from the other room leaving Beomgyu alone. He felt completely alone and lost. No one was there to save him now.

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Beomgyu stared at himself in the mirror of Yeonjuns wash room. He hated the way he looked. Flash back of we're Soobin had touched him ran through his mind. Like stated, it would never leave. This trauma was now permanently imprinted onto him. He took the first step into the water. It was just right, warmer than a blanket but not too hot. His skin didn't turn red from heat but he was no longer shivering. And the bubbles covered any skin he didn't want to see.

He closed his eyes, soaking deeper and deeper into it. Yeonjun was being so kind again, he hopes he can hold onto it for a little longer this time. Maybe they will get it right now.

Beomgyu let the memories flood through him, but it was only the good times. It's what brought him comfort through the waves of chaos.

He didn't realize but a smile appeared along with tears, thinking back to their past. When their first encounter was so sweet and innocent. Yeonjun was too shy to ride the bus alone how cute is that? And the flowers he picked for him, the ice cream they shared, the way the laid in bed listening to music just enjoying each other. And the sight of hundreds of butterflies flying in the wind around them. That's who he feel in love with. He missed him so much, he wanted that kind of love back. He could only pray and wait to see if it would ever come back.

"Beomgyu?" He was lost in thought, he didn't even hear his name being called. He was deep in memory lane when Yeonjun walked in. "Beomgyu what's wrong?" He finally woke up upon hearing the others gasp. "Huh?" He sat up and felt Yeonjuns soft and delicate hands running over his cheek. He also didn't notice that he was crying again and the boy was there whipping the tears away. "Love what's wrong?" He asked again and so with a broken cracked voice Beomgyu finally answered.