The next morning .. 10:35 am ..
I woke up and I could barely feel my legs.
This nigga got me in a haze with that thing between his legs.
I got out the bed and went to the bathroom.
I checked my phone and seen that Jerell texted me.
Jerell: Goodmorning beautiful.
Me: Goodmorning baby.
Jerell: What you doing today?
Me: Probably chilling with Vade today , wbu?
Jerell: I was tryna see if you wanted to meet at the cafe today , I miss your voice.
That text made me smile hard as hell.
Ain't no nigga ever told me he missed my voice.
Me: Well .. I'll see if I could sneak out for a hour or two. I'll text you when I'm ready.
Jerell: Aight.
With Vade still being asleep , I had time to go.
I got dressed and left.
On the way to the cafe , I texted Jerell and told him I was on my way.
I parked the car and went to the cafe.
I seen him and sat down across from him.
We started talking.
I peeped my eye to see some girl recording me.
"Fuck is your problem?" I asked her.
"Oh nothing , I just want 2tone to see his boyfriend on a date with another man." The girl said.
"First off , it's not a date. It's two friends talking over some coffee. Now if you excuse us , we would like to get back to that." Jerell said.
"Oh well , it's still getting sent to him and all the tea pages." The girl said , walking away.
"Fuck." I said , putting my head in my hands.
"Look it's gon be aight , we both know it was nothing more than a friendly hand out." Jerell said.
"But that's not what Vade is gonna think and I don't want my baby to feel like I'm stepping out on him. I gotta go Jerell." I said , standing up and walking out.
I walked to the car , got in and drove home.
I went upstairs and soon as I walked thru the door , a phone landed in my face.
"THIS WHAT THE FUCK YOU OUTSIDE DOING CARSON?!" Vade snapped.
"Babe it's not what you think it is!" I said , picking up the phone and seeing me and Jerell on the shade room.
"So you wasn't on a date with another nigga?! That's what you tryna tell me?!" He asked.
"Yes because I wasn't! He's just a friend baby I swear!" I said.
"Just a friend .. just a friend?! Let me go to a cafe and chop it up with some bitch and see how you feel!" Vade said.
"Try that shit if you want to! Go head , so they could take my ass to jail for murder!" I said.
There was a knock on the door.
I snatched it open and seen Valoure and Milano.
"I'm sorry , are we invading?" Milano asked , holding up Valoure.
"Um no .. come in." I said , hugging them.
"Milano who the hell is this man?" Vade asked , showing him the picture of me and Jerell.
"Ion know that boy. Why what happened?" Milano said , putting Valoure in his bouncer.
"Ya friend went on a date with some nigga and got all the blogs posting this shit." Vade said.
"It was not a date , it was two friends talking over coffee." I said.
"Mhm , we'll see." Milano mumbled.
"Manee is you fucking the nigga?!" Vade snapped.
"No! IM NOT!" I snapped back.
"Woah .. both of y'all calm down." Milano said.
"Now I gotta get yo blogs go stop posting this shit." Vade said.
"Ughhhh!" I said , in rage.
Later that day .. 9:27 pm ..
Me and Vade were in the house , acting like neither of us existed.
I walked in the kitchen and soon as he felt my presence , he tried to walk out.
I grabbed him by his hair and pull him back in the kitchen.
"Stop being childish and talk to me." I said.
"You want ME to stop being childish? You went on a date with a nigga a didn't tell me." Vade said.
"Various .. if I say this shit one more time , it was not a date. He is my friend and nothing more. You know we together , I know we together so why would you think I would step out and hurt you like that??" I said.
"Cause you did that shit with Rob. I ain't forget that shit!" He said.
"Okay! I get that but you can't just jump the gun and say that I'm just doing shit with any and everybody." I said.
"Well am I supposed to know that?! You round here givin it up to niggas that used to beat on you! Is that what I gotta do?! Give you a black eye for you to love me?!" He said.
I slapped him.
I slapped him so hard , his face turned red in a matter of seconds.
My hand was burning.
My eyes started tearing.
"You don't get to say that to me! .. Not after everything I've been thru—" I said , with tears running down my face.
"—get out Vade." I said , wiping my tears and sniffing.
He just stood there and stared at me.
As if he didn't hear what I said.
As if he didn't understand the words that were coming out of my mouth.
"GET.OUT!" I yelled.
He grabbed his sneakers , put them on , and left.
I went to the room and slammed the door.
I sat on my bed and hyperventilated.
All I could think about was Robs fist hitting my face.
And Vade saying that , made those bruises reappear.
Thinking off of emotions , I got up and grabbed Vade's gun off my dresser and put it to my head.
I took the safety off and took a deep breath.
