"What's up Rob .." I said , shaky.
"You blocked me so I guess that was my invitation to pull up on you." He said.
"Rob can you leave? Please? I can't-"
He grabbed my face and kissed me.
My heart told me to run.
But my body told me to take it.
We made out at the doorstep until we stumbled in the house and he picked me up and put me on the arm of the couch.
The way Rob made my body feel is so different from the way my heart felt
A tear dropped from my face as we kissed.
He opened his eyes and noticed the tear.
He stopped kissing me and wiped the tear.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I love you .. and i'm mad that I love you because I told myself that I would never love you again." I said.
"I love you Carson .. just love me back for once." Rob said.
He grabbed me and kissed me again.
He was manipulating me.
Making me think I did something wrong in our relationship.
Making me think I was the problem when the whole time it was him.
It was him who made me like this.
He was the one who made me crazy and paranoid.
He was and still is the reason I flinch when someone raises their hand at me.
I stood up and pulled his shirt off.
We walked to the room and I laid on top of him.
I felt him growing on my leg.
I pulled his pants off and started toping him off.
"Damn Carson .. I missed them lips." He moaned.
I did this because when me and Rob were together , this was expected of me.
I was expected to get on my knees , and do this on a regular day basis.
15 minutes later ..
"Im so sorry baby .. daddy sorry." He said.
"Fuckk .. it's okay daddy." I moaned.
"You gon let daddy back in?" He asked.
"Yes daddy! Ima let you back .. ima let you back in , I promise!" I moaned.
He had me in backshots with his hands wrapped around my neck.
Beating my back like a drum.
His hands were so tight around my neck that I could feel my skin heating up but I didn't stop him because this is what he does.
He fucks me like a dog and then goes back to treating me like shit.
But at the time .. I wasn't thinking about that.
I was thinking about if he really changed or not.
Thinking about if this time could be different between him and I.
But I was wrong .. I just didn't know it yet.
"Rob-ert .." I moaned.
"What happen baby .." He replied.
"I'm bout to cum .. you bout to make me cum baby .." I moaned.
I came and grunted so loud that the people on the sidewalk could probably hear me.
I was breathing heavy and damnear felt like I was in heaven.
Rob chuckled took his dick outta me.
He stood up and put his boxers back on.
"Don't you ever come back over here and drop some dick on me like that." I said , laughing.
"Look like you needed it." He said laughing.
I sat up and put my boxers on.
I stared at him while he cleaned himself up in the bathroom.
"What you staring at?" He asked , grinning.
"You .. I missed you Rob." I said.
"I missed you too. Thought you ain't want nothing to do with me." He said.
"I didn't .. but you just had to come back right?" I laughed.
"Yeaa sum like that." He said.
"Is it true ..? That you changed ..?" I asked.
"I've been trying .. for you." He said.
"Frl?" I asked.
"Yea .. I know i've treated you wrong but I wanna change for you. For us." He said , walking over to me.
"You being serious right now?" I asked.
"Yea .." He said.
