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"we are offering you a role that I'll change your life, you can go back to school with the amount of money that will be paid to you.its going to be a change in your life"Mr Craig explained to me.
" I don't want to go naked on tv, I once did a double but I can't do more than that.. I said.

"You can if you want more drugs" Steven spoke up.
"What?seriously?" I stood up.

"We're done petting you,if you don't want the role fine,but then I'm not giving you more drugs" he said.

"You can't hold that over to me..you're asking me to film porn" I shouted.

" It's not porn.. there's actually a plot,it's just an adult series that you'll be paid thousands of dollars" he said.

"Oh yeah?who'll have to endure the having the rest of his life having fingers point at him?I have two kid sisters who look up to me..I'm just gonna do that?" I shouted.

"You choose this life,you'll always have fingers pointing at you but that's more money, fame and more sponsors.. don't you want that? "Steven asked.
" Ask a porn actor to do it, I'm not one.i can't do it"I said.

" Fine..don't do it, but then before editing, we are not forcing you but baby I love you..I want you to be successful,strong and rich..I want you to be independent and able to stand on your own that's why I'm trying so hard to get you roles and if you don't want this one.. we'll find you other ones"He smiled.

" You say that all the time but I know you don't really love me..you make more money from selling off my body"I said.

" Have I ever told you to sleep with someone?you do it on your free will because you want to"He said.

"Mr Steven,Jamie..contact me when you make up your mind"Mr Craig walked out of the office.

" If Mr Craig finds someone else,I won't be happy with you but then it doesn't matter..look for your own supplier"He said and went to his seat.

I went back to the penthouse,it's been almost a month I haven't seen my mom and I was missing her like crazy.
She'd be worried if she saw how I looked nowadays.

But then it doesn't matter,no body matters as far as I can find a supplier.
Damn...or I might just stop taking them. I can if I put my mind to it.
It's just been six months,I can't be addicted just after six months.i have to actually be a user for a year or so.

I smiled at myself lying down on the bed.I'm going to stop doing drugs

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