Jamie's Survival

twenty-seven

"I'm leaving tomorrow and you're still going to make me eat broccoli cauliflower rice? "I glared at Lily.

" Why are you so pissed off today?? "Lily asked.

" I'm always pissed off whenever I see that smug on your face, you get off getting me to eat these veggies"I accused.

"That's what your body needs to be healthy" she said.

"I want pizza, Chicken, tacos, fries.. I want sea food and I want steak" I stood akimbo

" Why have you been moody lately? "She asked.

" I'm nursing a heartbreak, it's my first heartbreak and I don't know how to deal with it, I'm allowed to be moody so get me real lunch and not this"I answered.

" Nelson rejected you? "She asked.

" He didn't reject me,I'm too be pretty to be rejected.He was making this speech about transference bullshit.. I'm leaving tomorrow and today is his day off"I looked at Lily brushing the tears off my face.
She pulled me into her arms as my shoulders shook.

" He just broke up with his boyfriend.. give him some time"she whispered.

"Just broke up?that's three weeks ago and I don't have the time to give him I'm leaving tomorrow"I sniffed

" I was against this crush from the first time... But seeing you like this.. I don't like it"She held my face.

" I don't like this feeling too . Maybe I'm not ready to leave yet"I said

" You are ready.. you have a life ahead.. write your address and leave it in his office.. if he likes you.. he'll be driven to look for you" She smiled.

"You're so cheesy" I laughed.
"And you are beautiful, strong, smart, stubborn and sexy" she said.

"A whole bunch of S" I laughed.

"You laugh too easily nowadays.. I'm loving the new you" she said.

"I'm loving this me too and I'm growing into myself." I smiled.

"I'm going to see my other patients.. see you at dinner" She said and left.
I felt someone behind me.Only Charley walks in without knocking.
"Charley, you should start receiving counselling on why you should always knock" I called before he came in.

"You're leaving tomorrow right?" He asked.

"Yes, I'll still have to see therapists but I'm now an outpatient" I answered.
"I'm going to miss you" he said quietly.

" Oh Charley,Me too, get well and come find me when you get out" I hugged him.

"Are you ever going to finish your lunch?" He asked.
."if I don't, Lily might be never let me out so yeah,you're lucky she's not your dietician and I have to pack too" I smiled.

"You didn't bring alot.. you were always wearing patient uniform" He said.

"I didn't get to walk in by myself.." I laughed.

"Common, finish your meal and I'll help you pack" Charley say beside me as I ate quietly.

I was really going to miss everything here but I had life outside besides staying here would make Nelson not to ever look at me as nothing more than a patient