Jamie's Survival

Twenty -three

"I'm going to go back to medical school but I'm worried one day people would judge me since I used to be a drug addict" I looked at Nelson.
He looked sad today and I couldn't stop staring at the red mark on his cheek.

"I think you'll do great as a therapist since you've experienced addiction" he smiled.

"Are you okay Nelson?My session is over.. it's 3'o clock" I said.

"I'm fine" he picked up his file and stood up.
I held his hand.
"Did someone slap you?" I laid my hand on his cheek and he closed his eyes.
"I'm your doctor" he whispered.

"You stopped being at doctor after our session ended two minutes ago, I'm your friend now" I smiled.

"I broke up with my boyfriend last week, he came to pick his things and things kinda got heated up" He said.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"It was  two years relationship..I'm not okay"he replied.
I hugged him even though he was taller than me but I wanted to comfort him.
He wrapped his hand around my waist.

Comfort him. Comfort him. Comfort him.
I chanted in my head as my body reacted to his hard body against mine.
" It'll take time, it's gonna be okay I promise you.. take it from me that used to be in  cocaine induced love with my boss"I smiled perceiving his scent.

" Thank you Jamie.. I really needed someone to talk to"He broke the hug.

" You can always talk to me, I'm a good listener and I won't tell anyone, it'll be our little secret"I winked.

" You'll make a good therapist"He said and walked out.

My leg turned into jelly and I sat on the floor hugging my body. Imagining it was his.

"Are you okay?" Charley walked into my room.

"I... I'm fine..I guess " I stood up and staggered he held me.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"I think I..." Nelson came back.
I pushed Charley off me looking at him wide eyed.

"Hi Doctor" Charley smiled.

"Hi Charley.. I came to pick my pen, I think I lost it here" he said looking around.

"Here" I picked it and gave it to him. Our hands brushed.

"Bye" he said and left.

"Why did you have to come in now.. why why.. why" I fell on my bed rolling around.

"I think we really need to start going to group therapy before Doctor Philips comes in and drag us by our hair" Charley said.

"Philip can kiss my white ass" I said.

"That's deeply unsettling.. my wife would divorce me" Philip said from the door.

"Um.. I'm sorry" I stammered.

"Let's go" Philip said leaving my room.
"Damn.. damn.. damn" I followed Charley as he tugged me down the hall.

We entered the room Bernie was already there. She waved at us.
"You look happy and embarrassed today" Sarah smiled at me.

"I'm okay Sarah" I said curling myself on my love seat. It wasn't mine but I always choose the seat so it's my seat