Jamie's Survival

seventeen

"take a deep breathe and listen to yourself" The yoga instructor said in her calming voice.

I've never missed one session because I loved her voice. It was the only thing that could get me out of my room.
" Bend forward until your hand reaches the floor"she said.

We all followed the instructions. I was sure I wasn't the only one who her voice calmed judging by the population in the big hall.
" That's is for today.. see you on Wednesday"she stood up.

I stared at her until she left the room.
" Do you like her? I think everyone in the room loves her too"someone whispered to me.

I stared at her. She looked eighteen and wore barret.
"It's none of your business" I stood up and started going to my room.

"Jamie" Someone called and I stopped.

"Do you want to come to the dining hall for your food today?"doctor Lily asked. She was the dietician and always forced me to eat.

"Do you think we are friends or something?" I glared at her.

"Wouldn't you be happy if that happened?" She smiled.
I don't like her. She's a smart ass.
"I'm not hungry" I replied.

"Yes you are.. common" she said.

"I'm not... You wouldn't give me what I want anyway" I replied.

"You want.. D's.. that's not allowed in here and you have to get better and learn how to live without it" The girl from earlier said.

"How about you move along? Miss busybody" I rolled my eyes.
"I've been here for 80 days.. I'll be out in ten days and I'm telling you that's the best feeling knowing you've gotten your life back" she smiled.

" I want my life back already, just let me walk out of that door"I said.

" That's not happening Jamie.. come with me"Lily smiled.

" You'll be fine Jamie, just trust the doctors"the girl said.

" Who are you? "I glared at her.

" Miss busy body.. bye Lily, I'll see you after breakfast"she smiled.

" Bye Bernie"Lily waved as she ran into the hall.

" I'm going to my room"I said.

" You're going to eat"Lily stood akimbo.
That stance meant she would drag me by my hair if she had to so I followed her.my hair getting in my face,I tucked them behind my ear.
"Do you want a haircut?" She asked.
"Nope.. I'm growing out my hair" I smiled.

"You are beautiful.. there's nothing ugly about you," she said.

"Wait until I get back to my normal self, you're gonna fall in love with me just like everyone else,I'm a hot shot you know" I boasted.

"Yes, I can't wait for it" she smiled.

I couldn't hold my smile as I sat down.
I'm going to be fine.
I'm going to go back to normal Jamie.
I'm going to beat this addiction on the ass and buy it a ticket to hell.

It's gonna be okay.
I promise.
I know it.