Remember (Todobaku)

Chapter Seventeen

Maybe telling Todoroki that they were exclusive was the wrong move.

Now Todoroki is around him even more than usual, and it's not like he minds it a whole lot, but it has Bakugo thinking that people will find out.

He's not ashamed of Todoroki. Fuck no, have you seen the guy? Do you know how fucking selfless and nice he is? Only a dumbass would hide him. The problem is Bakugo.

Bakugo is not like Todoroki. He's not a pretty boy. Not selfless. He's not good.

People stare at him and judge him or feel sorry for him.

If they knew Todoroki was "with" him, it might push Todoroki away or hurt him. Bakugo has a lot of haters. He wouldn't want anyone hating on Todoroki just because they suspect something of them.

Bakugo just doesn't know how to explain it to him.

Even when they're in the comfort of their rooms, Bakugo can't find the courage to tell Todoroki that he shouldn't be sticking around the blond all the time. It would hurt Todoroki's feelings if he didn't explain why, and Bakugo doesn't want to explain because it's embarrassing.

He sees the hate comments every single day.

Sees the difference in the way that people treat him and Todoroki.

To Todoroki, they're nice and encourage him.

To Bakugo, they tell him to give up and turn himself in as a villain. A traitor against UA.

How can he tell Todoroki?

How can he admit this without making him sound like a pick me?

For now he just suffers alone, making things worse for himself by watching more of the videos that Toga took of him. There are three months worth of those videos. He's only been able to get through five, but today he wants to watch ten. That way he's watched fifteen.

After a few, his mind starts to get fuzzy.

God this video was of one of the more gruesome days.

The video starts off with Toga and Twice walking down the hallway to where Bakugo is being held.

They're whispering and giggling until they get near the room.

The two walk in and Bakugo's asleep, arms keeping him up, cuffed to the ceiling.

The day before they had electrocuted him until he got scars on his ribs.

Toga passes the camera to Twice and she holds up a finger to her lips, telling Twice to be quiet before she smiles and takes out one of her knives, twirling it in her hand as she walks around him quietly, figuring out where she wants the knife.

Bakugo, keep in mind, is dead asleep. He was fighting off the exhaustion, but in the end, the lack of sleep got to him and he couldn't help but drift off.

After some thinking, Toga crouches down behind the blond, a bit far in case he accidentally, or purposely, kicks her and grips the knife hard enough before pulling her hand back and stabbing his calf hard.

Bakugo's surprised scream is horrifying, and he finds himself sitting up in fear because of the adrenaline coursing through him.

His lights are on. They are most days recently.

The blond hugs one of his pillows tight and continues watching the videos.

Toga laughs and pulls the knife out before stabbing him around the same area in the same leg.

He still has the scars for those and he feels them throb in pain at the memory of how it felt.

The pain actually feels like it shoots up his leg and he drops his phone, lifting his leg to his hands to grab it in pain, feeling stupid as he does so because the quick reminder that it's not real runs through his mind.