Remember (Todobaku)

Chapter Thirty-Three

Todoroki started buying him flowers.

He had done so a while back and continued, but recently it's been more consistent.

There was even one time when he came back from seeing his family that he bought a whole bouquet and gave it to him while he was in the kitchen making them their meals for the week.

It's nice, but Bakugo doesn't know if he likes all the attention.

He does from Todoroki, don't get him wrong, but the attention from everyone else when Todoroki gives him flowers is just not what he wants.

But Bakugo loves when Todoroki does things like that for him. It's not necessarily that he's spending money on him or anything, it's that Todoroki was thinking of him and wanted to get him flowers.

Just because.

That alone makes him feel all giddy inside and forget about the attention from everyone else.

It even soothes his anxieties about Todoroki wanting someone else because now when Bakugo sees someone confessing to Todoroki, he remembers that Todoroki loves him. Goes out of his way for him.

Sometimes he'll overthink and fall into a hole of fear.

That Todoroki might realize he doesn't need Bakugo or doesn't want him and Bakugo will stay up thinking about it.

Even nights where Todoroki sleeps next to him.

Anxiety is the worst. Sometimes it creeps up on him and other times it claws at him as he tries to appear calm and collected but won't go away until he's shed some tears.

The crying feels good a lot of the time. It's like a weight off his back, but when his anxiety makes him cry in front of other people, that's when it becomes a real problem. This is because now he has anxiety about knowing that people saw him cry and it just makes everything worse.

That's the worst part of the crying.

All the attention.

It's fucking stupid given that he wants to be the number one hero.

The attention doesn't give him the satisfaction it once did.

Now it terrifies him. He's always doing something wrong and it's always being posted and shared for everyone to see like if he's some display.

He hates not having control on what people spread about him, especially when it's something that actually happened.

Like the kidnapping.

Now Mr. Aizawa has been training with him one on one during class to make sure he doesn't hurt himself but gets the best training possible. This also means that Mr. Aizawa has had a front row seat to Bakugo's latest panic attacks.

How fun.

Especially since he was there when he got the concussion and started crying and all that bullshit.

Bakugo hasn't had any of those crying fits in front of the man, which he is very thankful for.

Todoroki took care of Bakugo when he was concussed.

Todoroki made sure the lights were off, only turning on the restroom light if needed, gave Bakugo his painkillers at the exact time he needed to take them, gave Bakugo back rubs. The whole works.

He googled how to care for him, and it made the experience way better than it would have been if he had gone through it alone.

"When you eat a crayon, will you shit the color of the crayon you ate?"