Remember (Todobaku)

Chapter Thirty-One

So there was a slight bump in the road.

Okay, the bump was a mountain, but he got through it.

He got through it after two months, but those months were fucking hell and he feels bad for putting Todoroki through his healing process, too.

Todoroki was a big part of the process, helping Bakugo ten times more than he thought possible, but he still felt like Shir knowing that Todoroki was probably tired of helping and wanted to have a regular boyfriend.

At first, after the League of Villains news, Bakugo didn't want to believe he was at a low point again.

It wasn't until he had a panic attack from training with Thirteen that he finally admitted that he needed extra extra help.

He hadn't even gone that long in his high point before he was dragged back down.

It started with the League of Villains talk from Mr. Aizawa and then it got worse and worse as the news kept talking about them and how they kept making their presence known.

It always felt like they were taunting Bakugo. Telling him that they were out and free roaming about to do what they wanted.

The first night, he cried himself to sleep.

He was shaking a sweating until he passed out.

Maybe he fainted and just stayed asleep but whatever.

Eating was still somewhat okay, but he'd be anxious the whole time, scared someone would come in, smack the food out of his hand and start kicking the shit out of him.

It sounds insane, he knows.

He knows it's fucking stupid how it's still getting to him and how bad he got from hearing about them.

The whole first week was spent passing out from so much anxiety at night and trying to pretend everything was still going good and this wasn't affecting him.

He wouldn't let Todoroki sleep in his room, and he wouldn't go over to Todoroki's, but at the end of the second week, Todoroki had had enough and didn't allow Bakugo to kick him out of his room at night.

"Why are you pushing me away?"

He wasn't mad. Didn't sound like it at all and that just made Bakugo feel evehore guilty.

"I don't know. I feel better when you're here, but I just get the feeling that I'm inconveniencing you. You've never made me feel like that, but I- I guess I over think," he explains.

Communicating is always the best.

But he's horrible at it.

Like really terrible.

"Then I'm staying. You don't inconvenience me and I hate that you feel like you do, but I know you can't help it."

So that's how they fixed that problem.

The anxiety attacks during school took way longer than a ten minute talk to get under control.

He really wasn't expecting the first one.

Sure, he had been on edge all day, but class went fine and so did training. It was after training, on his way out of the showers that it happened.

He'd gotten dressed quickly and was on his way to the classroom to put away his costume and grab his bag.

Todoroki got a head start because he wanted to make them dinner and it would be a while before he finished, so he rushed out and told Bakugo to meet him at the dorms to help him finish up dinner.