Elysium

Truth 31

Leo was grabbing my shoulders, holding in me place. His eyes were serious and he appeared to be confident in his actions. He was staring deep into my soul and I trembled in discomfort and annoyance.

"I never knew you would become like this."

How could he say something like that to me? Just leave me alone. This is all your fault for destroying me yourself. This is all your fault.

"Let's get out here, I need to show you something."

Without even allowing me any time to respond Leo was dragging me out the basement and the bracelet he had given me was jingling with the sudden movement. One cannot exist without the other. We were in the attic now. It was such bullshit, he knew that right? I didn't want to exist with him anymore. I didn't need him anymore. I didn't need him to exist at all.

"What the Hell are you doing?"

Something didn't feel right. Lucifer was rummaging through cabinets and boxes, searching frantically for something.

"Finally."

He breathed, pulling out a picture frame from one of the drawers and multiple notebooks of sorts. He practically shoved them in my face, his eyes crazed.

"What's all th-"

I immediately recognize the image in the picture frame. It's Xiomara and I holding hands in the garden, smiling at each other. I grab the frame and look closer, I don't remember us ever taking this image, but it clearly is her and I. I missed when she was still here. I couldn't believe I ruined her too.

"How is this possible? I don't remember us taking any pictures...."

My hand slipped and dozens of pictures slipped out of the frame, spilling onto the floor. All of Xiomara and I, all of memories I didn't recognize. My head began itching again, and my vision was becoming blurry.

"I tried playing along with you because you looked so happy."

Leo mumbled to mostly himself.

"But then you stopped remembering what you were actually doing, and I couldn't stop you."

He slowly hands me a notebook and I open it cautiously. It was my first day of school today, I had never done anything so human in my entire being, but Sal and Lucius said that all humans go to school in order to learn about the world they live in. I may as well try to have some fun while I'm here. A diary entry? When did I ever write this?

"That was the very first time you met them, you didn't erase your memories of me in that worldline."

Leo said sitting beside me. My head was screaming, scratching inside of me. Please stop. I winced in agony and kept flipping the pages. Leo killed them, I can't believe he'd kill my family, I won't let this be the end, I won't let it happen, I can just start over somewhere else, this didn't happen, it won't ever happen again.

The pages begun flipping by themselves.

I'm so happy I got to see them again, I'm so happy I have everybody again, I beat the inevitable, I beat God.

I keep going even though I know it'll hurt.

Why do they keep dying? No matter what I do, it all ends the same. What am I doing wrong?

The pages were getting stickier and the handwriting grew sloppier.

You know what? It doesn't matter if they die. I can just keep going to another worldline and start over with them. We'll always be together!