The Teenage Reality l.h

33. No explanations

"He fucking cheated on you?" Aiden's words kept repeating itself automatically as if I couldn't control it's simultaneous chants.

I walked towards Aiden and grabbed his phone, it was apparently a trend going on twitter saying '#LukeandRena'. The photos on the trend were unbelievable, it was a photo of Luke and Rena against eachother, kissing.

I kept zooming on the photo checking to see if it's Luke and damn right it was, his face was clearly shown obviously. I still didn't believe it, he would never cheat on me, he said he will never hurt me. He promised me that we woulf be okay.

I scrolled through the hashtag and most were fan tweets asking if we broke up or if Luke actually cheated on me.

Shit, maybe that was what Dennis meant to check on twitter, maybe that was what Jaylen enraged on, maybe Bryana thought I knew about this and asked if I was fine, maybe Luke meant he's sorry for this.

It was finally connecting, Luke cheated on me.

Luke cheated on me with Rena. Rena Lovelis from Hey Violet. Fucking Rena Lovelis. Mother fucking Rena Lovelis.

I didn't know what to feel, or how to feel. I felt numb, every other emotions were blocked out solid; Should I cry? Should I be angry? I didn't know what to feel.

"Sky" Aiden wrapped his arms around and then I finally cried, I cried and I didn't care if I seemed weak, I needed to cry.

There I cried in the arms of my little brother. I can't believe Luke would hurt me like this, with that-that ice cream stick.

Mum heard my loud cries and asked what was wrong when she stepped in my room concerned.

I didn't heard what Aiden said to my mum but after he spoke to her, mum pulled me away from Aiden and hugged me. "Just cry baby, it's okay" Mum reassured.

Her words made me stop crying, the powers of a mother is unbelievable. I finally stopped crying after while. Without realizing my eyes were slowly starting to rest, it's an instinct of mine to fall asleep after crying.

Mum and Aiden left me to sleep, though I wasn't asleep. My eyes were shut closed but my mind was still alive, every memories I had with Luke rewind itself.

Again it's instinct, you immediately rewind every memory of the significant other that you both had, just like when someone close to you dies you immediately just play a throwback of yourself and the late person.

Luke promised though, he told me he wouldn't hurt me, ever. He told me before he left, he would never hurt me.

Never.

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He never texted me, he never called me asking me about anything. I had to miss my gold coast trip because of this whole situation, I didn't felt comfortable partying after the abrupt break up.

Though, Luke did texted me the other day.

Luke: I think we're better off seperated

Me: Why? I don't understand.

Luke: I don't want you to..it's complicated

Me: Why..what did I do wrong? Luke..

Luke: Everything...just

Luke: Stop bothering me and my relationship thank you.

Me: Okay luke.

The conversation ended there, I never heard anything from him since. I've spoken to the rest of the guys but they never told me what made Luke end our relationship that wasn't even so hectic.

But all their answers were equivalent. "Luke should be the one telling"

Twitter wasn't any better though, it's either people sending me hate or people sending Luke hate. It was a constant battle.

Speaking of twitter, I haven't tweeted in about 6 days now. That is so unlikely of me since I usually tweet about everything.

'@SkylaButler: Just got the infectious HSC fever, sad'

I read through my mentions and everything was about Luke and people asking how I was doing.

People were actually concerned about me, including the 5 Seconds Of Summer fans.

My phone started blaring out and Luke's name popped up. His name popped up several times for the past few weeks but I rejected all his calls, I didn't need to hear from him anymore.

I casually rejected the call and continued scrolling through twitter as if nothing happened.

It's been a while since I've made a youtube video, maybe I should start making them weekly now.

I set up the camera and the lightings before I started filming, it felt so weird because the last time I made a video was with Luke.

"Hey guys! It's me Skyla and I'm back with another video" I smiled brightly at the camera. I then realize, I didn't know what I was filming. I wasn't prepared.

I quickly tweeted out on twitter for people to send me suggestions on what I should film and most of them were suggesting about the break up and it's explanation.

'@SkylaButler: Guys, I can't explain something that I don't even understand myself, sorry.'

I ended up not even filming the video because all the suggestions were related to my past relationships and Luke. I wasn't ready, and I didn't want to be unprofessional.

I officially have nothing to do.

I would hang out with my friends but they are all sadly out in gold coast having fun. So the only friend I had at the moment was Aiden.

Aiden had been my rock through everything, he's been so supportive and very loyal lately. He even canceled all his plans with his friends to just make sure I was doing fine.

I continued scrolling through twitter and something caught my eyes.

'@Renalovelis: @SkylaButler Hey heard you broke up with your boyfriend, me and my boyfriend feel very sorry for you :)'

there was a picture linked to it, and it was a picture of her and Luke in bed. Shit, this girl is seriously getting on my nerves. If she wants to play it this way then, she needs to stop because guess who's good at it? Skyla Butler.