The Teenage Reality l.h

63. Emotions

Some days are harder than others, most of those harder days involves crying and aching because of how empty I felt.

In two more months, Luke will be back home. Two more months is absolutely long and I don't know if I can wait any longer, nights where I tell myself that I can't do it is one of the hardest nights.

But I chose Luke and I just have to go through the consequences. Being in a relationship with Luke Hemmings is not as perfect as what people might illustrate, sure he's undeniably attractive and talented, his heart is probably bigger than his whole body and he's just an amazing boyfriend there's nothing wrong with him at all.

It's just that, sometimes you kind of want someone who is always there when you need a hug. I've been feeling overly too emotional lately and I'm never like this, but every night gets harder.

Especially nights where your friends invites you to go out with them and you just come alone by yourself whilst they are with their other pair.

It's like as if I don't even have a boyfriend, some nights Luke and I couldn't even text each other because of the time difference but I know Luke is trying very hard to keep in contact.

He would even stay up after a show to face time with me until the next day just to make sure I was okay and I wasn't missing him too bad and I wasn't but once that call ends my heart continues to ache again.

"Skyla, c'mon now you've been crying for 30 minutes" I had my head laid on Jaylen's lap for hours, she's such a great best friend.

I tweeted out that I needed a friend to lay my head on their lap on and Jaylen came 15 minutes after I tweeted that.

Yes, we are your friendship goals.

"It's just so hard Jay, I don't think I could do-" Jaylen shook her head and wiped my tears, cutting me off abruptly.

"Yes, you can do it babe I know you can, he's out there probably thinking about you as well" I looked up at Jaylen and smiled sadly.

"Thanks for being my best friend Jaylen" I told her wiping my tears with her cardigan. She just chuckled and let me anyways as she continued running her fingers through my hair.

Jaylen always came whenever I needed her, she would stay up with me until I fall asleep. A few days ago she stayed the whole night until I stopped crying and fall asleep, I felt so bad for Jaylen because she barely got any sleep because of my emtional self.

"Don't thank me baby girl, I'll always be there for you whenever you need someone alright?" I nodded and wrapped my arms around her. "I love you for being my best friend" My tears starts to well up again.

"Are you serious? Are you going to cry again?" Jaylen groaned, I laughed and wiped my tears.

"Are you on your period or something?" I shook my head and laughed. "God, how did I even put up with you for 7 years seriously you're a bigger pain in the ass than Dennis"

It was about 2 in the morning and neither one us were tired, I just sipped some nice warm tea and Jaylen drank some beers of different kinds that she could find in my house.

"Let's do a twitcam" Jaylen suggested and I agreed.

It's been almost a year since I've done one, I think it's only fair for me to share my restless nights with my followers.

I was already on my laptop so I was already set to do the twitcam. Jaylen laid on her stomach beside me as I tweeted out that I was about to do a twitcam.

I set my laptop and started the twitcam. I let Jaylen do the talking at first since I was busy replying to some tweets on twitter, complaining that the link doesn't work or  something in that nature.