I wish I could stop loving you
I wish I didn't associate you with my favorite color blue
Because that's the word that comes to mind, when I think of what you put me through
I don't think I have ever been so sad
So angry, and so mad
I mean I truly thought I had gone crazy
I wish I could un see all the things you did to me
I wish I would have had more strength, to say no
But between you and I, I just couldn't let you go
I wish you would have loved me enough to choose
So, that I wouldn't have been so miserable, while having to see such a happy carefree you
I wish I would have never picked up the phone
I wish I could erase all of the conversations we had when we were at home
I wish you would have just left me alone
I think, it would have been easier, for me to just have kept you as a friend
Rather than a lover, who I wanted to be with until the very end
I wish with all of me I could just hate you
It would probably be easier, since I know what its like to still be in love with you
I wish I could see past the man I wanted to see through
I wish, I could have been able to read what your eyes so desperately held on to
I wish that you could just let me go once and for all
To stop coming back, every time you see me standing tall
Because all you need to do, is give me one look and I'm crumpled to my knees
That's how much power you have over me
I wish I could get back the lost trust
I wish, I could get back the idea of us
I'd wish a thousand times for the tears I shed to come back
Because I should have never let it come to that
But the one thing I'll never be able to wish for, is for me to go back in time
To the day before you looked into my eyes
And promised me I was yours and that you would always be mine
Because for better or for worse I loved you
And all the wishing in the world will never let me loose the name you left on my heart
Forever there, to remind me that even in your absence, you and I can never truly be apart
Because even in the wake of our demise, there was still a time where it was truly just you and I
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Dear John: The Words I Could Never Say
PoetrySometimes we cry in silence because the words we want to scream would break us if we spoke them. In this book I have compiled the poems, I poured my heart and soul into when my lips didn't dare speak a word of what my heart so badly wanted to say. S...
