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They say that grief hits you in stages. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. If that's true, why does it seem like everyone except for me has skipped right to acceptance? Why does it seem like i'm the only person who's life has been completely obliterated by your abrupt departure? You were my best friend, even more than that you were the love of my life. The only person I could ever even picture growing old with. The only person I would ever even want to. I can't even begin to imagine how i'm supposed to "move on" from this.
My therapist keeps telling me that the stages of grief are non linear. She says that it's normal for people to react differently to something as horrible as this and I shouldn't be so quick to dismiss their grief.
She says that everybody grieves differently, and most of them are trying to fake it til they make it or some stupid shit like that. I don't know. I don't really care about them. I don't even really care about me. You're gone and I hate the fact that they're acting like nothing happened. How is it fair that world keeps spinning when you're gone?
I know it's selfish of me to think that way, but I don't care about that, either.
Missing you is the hardest thing I have to deal with every single day, so I like to think that i'm allowed to be a little selfish every once in a while.
Love you.
Yours,
Will
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𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒, w.soot
FanfikceWatch the bright eyes as they slowly sink into sleep And that same old silence that I've come to know Every time I find it when there's nowhere left to go or " I wish I could hate you even half as much...
