𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒, w.soot

SIXTEEN.

SIXTEEN ;
happiness.

E,

Sometimes I wake up and think that i'll never be okay again. Sometimes, I feel like when you passed, a piece of me did too. And maybe that is the case. Maybe i'll always be a little bit sad for the rest of my life.

Today was different though. I wouldn't go as far as to say I was happy, because I can barely even smile these days without feeling like i'm betraying you. I think content is a better word. Mia and James ( they're friends now, I forgot to mention ) dragged me out of my room today and took me to the park. He brought some snacks that he definitely stole from my house, and she brought cookies that I accidentally dropped all over the grass.

It was the most fun i've had in months.

God, I wish you could've been there. Especially when they started arguing and Mia ended up pushing James into the pond just to be dragged in as well.

It started pouring before they could team up and drag me in, which didn't make much sense to me since they were already soaked. I'm not complaining, though. They insisted on getting out of the rain before they got sick, which again, didn't make any sense but they didn't seem to care. We ended up at Mia's house, which was the best possible scenario because her cat ( his names Bowie ) is an absolute sweetheart.

I really wish you could've been there, E.

I don't know if you were a big Taylor Swift fan, but Mia was blasting her albums the entire time we were there. One of her songs really fucking hurt my feelings, but it also made me realize that there will be happiness after you. Maybe not in the near future, but one day. And i'm really fucking looking forward to that day, E. I can't wait until I can happily think of my favorite person again. I also never thought i'd be taking life advice from Taylor Swift, but fuck man she really knows what she's talking about.

I love you.

Yours,
Will