ELEVEN ;
sad part two.
E,
I've come to the conclusion that i'll be sad for the rest of my miserable life. It's been almost two months and i'm starting to think that this is just my life now. James has temporarily moved in and has been staying on the couch, and although I won't say it out loud, i've never been more grateful for him.
Everyone keeps reminding me that time will make it easier, just like they did all those months ago. Time doesn't change anything. Death changes everything. I don't know why it's so hard for people to understand that. I still miss your hugs, and your advice, and mostly just you in general, just as much as I did the day you died. Time changes nothing.
I just miss you.
Loving you changed my life, E. It shouldn't be a surprise that losing you did the same.
I'm exhausted and I miss you and every single time I go to sleep I pray to a God I didn't even believe in before this that i'll wake up and everything will be back to normal.
And in a way, my nightmare comes true every single time. I dream of normal, and this has been my new normal for almost a year.
I'm not sure I can handle thinking about that right now. The only thing that's been on my mind all day is that I wish I hugged you tighter the last time I saw you.
I love you.
Yours,
Will
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𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐒, w.soot
FanfictionWatch the bright eyes as they slowly sink into sleep And that same old silence that I've come to know Every time I find it when there's nowhere left to go or " I wish I could hate you even half as much...
