Chasing Stars

chapter 3

Tomorrow will be the engagement party.

Napakabilis ng oras. Hindi ko na ulit nakita si Enzo matapos ang salo-salong iyon.

I need to buy a new pair of shoes for tomorrow's event. I forgot to tell the ones who make my dress for tomorrow to include shoes.

I sighed while looking for shoes.

Wala akong maisama para mamili ng sapatos kasi wala naman akong kaibigan. I only focus on studying dahil ayokong maging kahihiyan kay dad because he doesn't want me to be a failure.

But in exchange is my happiness.

Dapat siguro hinayaan ko na si mom na samahan ako.

"What kind of shoes are you looking for ma'am?" the sales lady asked.

"For engagement party sana."

"Wow. Congratulations ma'am."

I gave her a faint smile but I think she didn't notice.

"Follow me maam. I'll show you our new and latest design."

Sinundan ko naman ito.

Pinaupo nya ako sa sofa at pumasok sa loob ng storage room at lumabas dala ang isang napakagandang pares ng sapatos.

"It just arrived from Paris maam. Limited edition."

Wow. This is really... I can't describe it but I like this.

Isinukat ko ito at sobrang ganda nito kaya binili ko na ito at ng mabayaran ay lumabas na ng store.

Nagutom ako so I wanna grab something to eat when I bumped ito someone. Nabitiwan ko tuloy ang paper bag na may laman na box ng sapatos.

"Oh. I'm sorry." He apologized sincerely but when he saw me and our eyes met, his brow started to furrow.

He really hates me. And I don't know why?

"I'm sorry." I apologized.

Nilampasan nya na ako na parang isang hangin.

I bit my lower lip.

Hindi na dapat ako nasaktan but still I can't help but to feel disappointed and hurt.

Then the next thing I knew we are in front of people announcing our wedding.

"Cheers."

Itinaas namin ang hawak na wine glass at ininom iyon.

Gusto kong isuka ang ininom ko dahil ang pait pait nito pero pinilit kong lunukin iyon at ngumiti sa mga bisita.

Enzo is acting sweet again in front of everyone.

"Smile will you? Show them you're happy to marry me. Huwag mo akong ipahiya." He whispered.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim before smiling sweetly.

I don't want this but what can I do?

I've been raised to be obedient and never disobey.

This sucks.

I just show them what they want to see, do what they want me to do, be what they wanted me to be, and say what they wanted to hear.

After the party, I saw Enzo with someone. I think it's his friend. Nasa balkonahe ang mga ito.

"Congrats on your wedding, bro." His friend said sarcastically.

"Tsk. Fuck off." He said then lit his cigarette in his mouth.

"So hinayaan mo lang na umalis si Kristine? Hindi mo ba sya susundan? She's your whole world yet you let her off easily."

Bumuga ng usok si Enzo.

Kristine? So he has a girlfriend? That's why he's mad.

"I just don't want her to get hurt again. I don't want to hurt her again." There's a hint of sadness in Enzo's voice.

"So when are you going to get her back?"

"After I settle everything."

"Settle means throwing away your wife?"

Throw away? Am I a trash?

"I need some time to get rid of her. I need my inheritance."

Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko.

I will be used, again.

At kapag wala ng silbi ay basta na lamang ako iiwan at itatapon.

I don't know that this is tiring.

It's tiring to seek love.

I don't know that I'll come to this point where I'll accept my faith.

To be unloved and unappreciated.