Alex's POV:
Why... Why would she do this. I feel horrible. Ann is crying everyday and I don't know what to think. They asked me if I think it was on purpose but I don't think that. It wasn't the same like last time.
Amy did this before but she was crying but she wanted to do that she was so confident that this is good for her. But now she didn't look any like this. I think she just wanted to help herself from the pain. But it was bad. I told her milion times and I didn't know she started again. I wanted to help her and she looked good but I don't know when it started. I failed.
Ann just cried and told me that it's her fault. That she didn't held Amy and that she is worst sister on the Earth. But it's my fault not Ann. I knew that Ann is for Amy the best sister. But I was so blind when I thought Amy stopped and stopped checking her. I failed so bad. Like a friend and like a family. We are like a family like siters and I failed. All of us failed.
And then Viktor. He is in a deep depresse. He blamed himself that he is worst boyfriend and he's sitting in a hospital all days. She's in coma 1 month now. Luke woke up 2 days after Amy did this. He feel so bad too but he has problems with himself.
Her dad Mr. Dvořák. He is happy for Luke but so sad for Amy. I don't think he's diddpointed in her more in himself. We all are. We failed probably all.
I didn't tell it to guys yet because they are in so much stress and I can't do this. I'll tell them after the tour. It ends tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to tell them but I need to. They deserve to know.
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-two months and half later
Amy's POV
I opened my eyes. The lights are shining so much. Where am I?? Hospital?? No no no it wasn't nightmere it's true. I - I disappointed them... All.
„Amy??” Holy world you are awake. Guys she's awake” I heard some familiar voice. But it wasn't my family or Alex. It it was Louis. What?? What's he doing here?? No that's wrong he wasn't supposed to know it. Their tour...
„L-Lou?? I tried to say. But I can't speak. I was too scared. And just...
„My lil sissy I am so sorry. I didn't save you I feel horrible” Ann she doesn't save me?? I disappointed her not she. I am so confused. My brother is awake, here and I missed it. I left him wake up with that I tried to kill myself?? No that's wrong this is, School is I can't.
I pointed on paper and started communicate with them. I was in coma 2 and half months.
Doctor said that I have PTSD and it'll take time to started speaking again. I will go on therapy and I will take antidepressants. I wanted to tell Viktor that I love him. And tell everyone that it's not theit fault but I just writed it. They don't forgive themselves but I did all of this. I left them alone and with all of this shit. I disappointed them again. If it'll get better?? Time will show...
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This is the End.
Amy had One Direction like a best friends. She has boyfriend. And she has harder life now
Next book first chapter is going out soon. I know that this book isn't so long or something but I want it that way. It will be trilogy I think. So that's right. Next book will be longer I promise. I love you all and thanks for reading this first book. <33 With love. From me. Byee
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Life so Sick or Perfect |One Direction|
Teen Fiction!!!!Warning, you can find here bad depression and anxiety thoughts, self harm, suicidal things, eating disorder and other mentalillnesses!!!! 1st book of serie Life so Sick or Perfect Her life is one big roller coaster. One day it looks like a perfe...
