Forever & Always (Shane Walsh: tragic love book 3)

Hurt

Ericka's pov

As I walked back to mine and Shane's room, I was still feeling sorry for myself about how Daryl didn't want me to go with him to look for Henry but he let Connie go. I shouldn't be jealous hell, I have no right to be, I am married but it still stung.

I walked into mine and Shane's room, and got ready for bed. Shane was in the shower, so I got into bed, faced the wall and covered myslef, waiting for him to join me.

As swear I heard myself snore while I felt the bed dent causing me to turn over even though I can crash out at any second. "It's ok baby, go back to sleep, it's just me." Shane says wrapping his arm around me and kissing my forehead. "Goodnight princess." He tells me

I feel my eyes close and I'm moments away from sleeping again when I say, "Night Daryl." After those words escaped my mouth my eyes flew wide open as I see Shane starring at me with a surprised look on his face as he gets off the bed.

"Daryl? You seriously just called me Daryl?" He says in a mild upset tone

"I didn't mean it like that, honest." I say as my heart begins to beat fast

"Are you sleeping with him again?" Shane questions me

"What?... No!... Are you insane?" I immediately answer

"Then why did you call me Daryl?" Shane asked while he stands infront of the bed with his arms crossed waiting for an answer

"Because I got jealous..." I begin to say when he cuts me off

"Jealous? You got jealous, what the hell made you jealous? Was he talking with another girl?" Shane questions me this time in a pissed off tone

"Yes but it's not what you think, let me finish before you start jumping into conclusions." I tell him as I get off of the bed and make my way towards him

"Do you have feelings for him?" Shane asks stepping back from me as I try to approach him

"What?" I asked surprised "he's handsome but..." Again Shane cuts me off

"Handsome? So you have a crush on him? Let me guess he has one on you too, but you can't be together cause I'm here right?" Shane says practically shouting but while also trying to not to be so loud

"I didn't say that!" I say with tears now forming in my eyes

"Let me ask you somethin', that night, when you slept with him out of spite. Did you want him to knock you up since I couldn't before?" He says in his douche bag voice he knows I hate. Hurt by his actions and his cocky manner without hesitation I slapped him.

"How dare you say that to me." I shout at him,"if you would stop interrupting me then you would know why I'm jealous and you wouldn't be acting like a pinchie pendejo." (Fkn stupid or fkn ahole, your pick) 

Shane looks at me with a blank stare in his eyes.

"I'm jealous because I offered  Daryl help to look for Henry who is missing, because Carol is coming back for him in two days. He told me no, I was even gonna leave you at note as well. Then as Daryl is about to walk off, Connie follows him and he lets her go with him." I say to Shane who now has guilt written on his face "my best friend just ditched me for someone else, that's why I'm jealous."

"Then why the hell did you still say his name though?." Shane says sternly

"Because I can't get that image of him and Connie walking away out of my head." I say looking into Shane's eyes "oh and as for you thinking I wanted him to knock me up, I didn't!... You and I have wanted a child ever since we lost Angel almost twenty years ago. I had two miscarriages before Shayna remember? And two after." I say as my voice begins to crack, "all because I want a family with you and only you." I say as tears now roll down my face. As Shane lowers his head down as he too begins to shed tears as he is probably remembering the physical pain I went through