the secrets we shared | rowan laslow x reader

chapter xiv

of course we took rowan to the infirmary, and he was in and out of consciousness the whole time. he had to stay in the infirmary for a few days because of the blood loss, and i stayed with him the entire time.

i am just about to doze off in the chair when- "y/n?". my head turns quickly and i am suddenly wide awake. rowan is looking back at me. he is conscious. i am so happy i want to hug him so tightly, but he is still injured so it wouldn't go well. a massive smile will have to do instead. "hey how are you feeling?" i ask in a hushed voice - it is quite late at night and rowan has not fully adjusted yet. "yes i am okay. my chest hurts a lot though. what happened?" i hesitate, not knowing how to tell him. "you.. saved me. from xavier" i say, struggling for words. the whole thing still seems so unrealistic, and i have to refrain myself from laughing out loud at the statement. he blinks, and his memories seem to come back to him. "oh yes. he tried to shoot you" he says awkwardly. i am at loss for what to say or do. rowan goes back to sleep, and i do too, however i dont move from the seat.

it takes a couple of days, but he is finally ready to go back to his normal life. we haven't spoken much the past couple of days, yet as soon as he stands up i give him the biggest hug (making sure to stay away from his injury), clinging to him tightly. "never do that again," i make him promise me.

i hold him for a bit longer, before helping him get back to his room. xavier is in there, so i do not stay for long at all, and instead go back to my own dorm. "there you are! i haven't seen you in 3 whole days! i thought you moved out" bianca says lightheartedly. "i pretty much did" i laugh wearily. "rowan has been discharged" i inform her. "and hes gone back to the room with xavier? thats fucked up."
"yeah i know, but it was accidental. xavier wanted to protect rowan, not hurt him."
"ha! thats ironic."
"what is?"
"xavier tried to protect rowan from you, yet he ended up hurting him. and who was the one who stayed with rowan for 72 consecutive hours? even when he wasn't conscious?"
"it was the least i could do - it was my fault after all." i try to explain.
"except it wasn't your fault at all. i know i don't like rowan, but damn you clearly do. so do something about it!"