***Taylor's POV***
~past tense~
January
"You don't have to drop me into uni I can drive" I say feeling like I've burdened him enough already, he lounges in a blue jumper over the coffee machine and as I walk in he smiles slightly eyeing my dress and boots.
"What would be the point of both of us driving to and from the same place" Ross laughs and I relax a little as he hands me a latte.
"You look wonderful" he complements and I smile over at him.
"Thanks for lying with me" I whisper into my latte and he melts.
After our little morning coffee, he leads me out to his car and settles my bag on the back seat. Watching him reverse and head towards the lanes where the bears roam the surrounding forests, I smirk thinking of mine and Jays grizzly encounter last year. My eyes settle on Ross, his blonde hair and tan forearms and I cringe unbelieving that I practically threw myself at him earlier in bed.
It is no wonder that I am attracted to him, lounging back in his car with his sleeves rolled up as he confidently drives us through the winding roads that used to frighten me. However in the daylight, with the weak sun cascading light over the trees that interlock above us it all looks almost beautiful. My attraction to him shall remain harmless I tell myself, noting that I am in a complicated position right now, which needn't be further troubled by my love for Ross.
"What are you thinking?" He says quickly glancing at me before bending around the trees elegantly in his Aston Martin.
"I was thinking, look I'm sorry for trying it on with you this morning. And thanks for you know knocking me back" I say blushing crossing my bare legs over in the car as he quickly look back out of the windshield.
"Taylor" he begins and I love it when he says my name just like that. My mind wanders to the many written sonnets in his journal that I have secretly snooped in on, and I cannot help but to blush.
"I've wanted you for a long time, It took all of my efforts to not get with you this morning. But I also know you're hurting right now and getting with you is gonna have to wait, until you're sure and feeling better" he says softly noticing my red cheeks as he cruises the maroon Aston Martin up the final hill that leads out to town.
"Thanks" I say quietly as he indicates onto the main road and I glance at him questionably.
"Want a little breakfast before we go?" He smiles over at me and I grin from ear to ear, all of my worries and insecurities melt away. Ross pulls into, a cafe that we have frequented before. We order some pastries to go and a large mocha before we walk back down the tree lined sidewalk. He places his large hand in my own and I look up at his face, a wry smile plays over his lips as he holds onto my hand striding through the streets back to the car. I decide to smile and look away rather than drawing attention to the gesture. We have held hands many times, but now that I am, sort of single, everything feels like it means more.
The snow has cleared fully leaving the roads much more manageable as we cruise up to university. Soon it will be spring I tell myself where the leaves and plants start shooting up and I will hopefully be happier.
Parking up at university I notice that we are still relatively early despite our stop off. I see Matthew's 4x4 almost instantly, looking around briefly for him before Ross and I head to psychology together. As we walk, hand in hand, through halls I think about the fact that Matty is only a short walk away and that I could go and get him. I could just turn up in the art studio, imagining him seated by an easel as he paints. I play out the situation in my head with all of its different possible eventualities, me asking him to take me back.
YOU ARE READING
Desire me - the third novel ****editing
Romance"I'm a bad girl. He is gazing at me in his car, I imagine our relationship and it flashes before me through my mind. He's drop dead gorgeous, and how I can even manage to stop touching him is truly remarkable. He's handsome in a true and honest way...
