***Jay's POV***
Taylor is exquisite.
She's trying on the red dress, in the fancy shop we went to before. I'm sitting on the little stool waiting for her to come out of the changing room. Looking at the patterns in the carpet thinking about how pivotal that moment was in my life.
Rach telling her about Nina, Matthew being there for her, Ross taking her home and after all of those things Taylor still choosing me. Despite all of my shortcomings.
"Jay, it's perfect" she says chuckling from behind the curtain.
I wait for her to appear. We're picking a dress for the Sydney opera house. I've organised everything else. The dress is her choice and she always picks well. I saw Joshua Morelli's eyes on her last night, my fingers were flexing just wanting to connect with his jaw as he watched her lean over the pool table. But I didn't, I have to keep my anger better in check from now on.
It's bugging me, what did he say to her in the kitchen? Why did he have his shirt off? I trust Taylor, I trust in her love for me. I do not trust the men around her. If Ross had any chance, if she opened up to him again he would take her, same with Matty. I need to make my position crystal clear.
There's a part of her body that I've recently fallen in love with. Her neck and clavicles, I've never noticed it on any other women before. But hers, the way her shoulders slope down and her clavicles frame her chest. It's pure femininity.
I notice it first as she steps out in her bardot dress, the satin fabric showing off her exposed neck and cleavage. I too think this dress is the one. The dark red fabric skims all the way down to the floor, accentuating her every beautiful curve.
She stares at me, and I realise I'm gaping at her. She smiles, even with no makeup on she looks like a goddess.
"It's perfect, like you" I tell her as she walks over to me.
"Thank you" she says simply and I want her.
I'm in love with her, I want her wrapped around me. She doesn't ever draw attention to herself. She commands it through her class and beauty.
I pay, after she chooses shoes and something called a clutch which she explains will hold her phone and lipstick. I laugh telling her it's a bag. The shop assistant eyes Taylor enviously, who wouldn't? My girl is beautiful and I only have eyes for her.
When we leave, me holding her bags, I drive us out to my favourite restaurant. I've not taken her here yet. It's Italian so I know she will love it. The weather is warm today, and the decking outside is open.
The waiter comes over to us and he's all smiles at Taylor. She's watching me, her eyes full of light and happiness and I realise I've got nothing to worry about with this one. I do something I never do, and I order for her. The best pasta off of the menu, and champagne. A steak for me.
"Don't worry I know you, you'll love it babe" I tell her and she hooks her leg around mine under the table.
She takes off her denim jacket revealing her white tank top which exposes her neck and chest again and I have to remind myself not to stare. Her skin is tanned and beautiful and it glows under the sun. I can't wait to see her in Australia. She tosses her hair back showing me more of her neck and I sigh.
I pull off my leather jacket and light up a cigarette for her.
"Thanks babe" she smiles.
I light up my own and the waiter reappears with our drinks; my coke and her champagne. I'm the driver. I keep her safe at all times.
"Jay" she says and her voice is all seductive and sexy.
She's whispering what does she want to ask me?That's the other thing that captivates me about her, I can't guess what she's thinking.
I sip my coke, play it cool man.
"So do you want to have a threesome" she whispers in my ear.
I nearly spit all of my coke out.
She just waits for my reaction.
"Taylor. I ugh" I say and this isn't coming across as cool at all.
"I mean two girls, I just feel safe and secure enough with you to do that" she says.
I'm getting hard, this has never happened to me before. No girl has got me hard by talking to me. Ever. She's so lucky I can't bend her over this table and fuck her.
"Yes. Taylor. Wow" I say pushing my hair back.
She grins and blushes red.
"Can I be clear though, I want to only touch you. I want to only have sex with you." I say. It doesn't interest me fucking other women or touching other women.
"Mmm" she says and she's pleased.
"Shhh" I say, Lord she is testing all of my restraint.
The waiter interrupts us, I've moved her chair right next to mine and my arm is around her stroking her side as she's googling places in Australia that she wants to visit.
"Your steak sir" he says.
"And for the lady the best pasta you can buy in the whole of the states" he smiles at her.
When he has left us I turn to her, clasping her jaw in my hands. Be cool man.
"I love you. Just you Taylor. I'm ecstatic and more than happy to try things with you, but if we do this you have to know that it's only you that I want. I don't want anybody else ever. Just you, us" I tell her and she kisses me. Clearly pleased with my clarification.
"I only want you Jay. I was just thinking about what Rach said. And I was so turned on because you were watching me" she says and her cheeks flush again.
"I was sort of stunned to be fair and totally turned on" I tell her.
"Because seeing you like that is wow" I stammer, what happened to being cool ?
She chuckles and we sit quietly for a while.
"When's our flight baby" she asks me and I love it when she uses pronouns like ours.
"It's at 1am, its a long one so we can sleep on the plane" he laughs.
"We need to pack" she says eyeing her watch.
I smile at her.
"Don't worry, I've got this. Tell me what you wanna take and I'll put it all in the cases." I say. My one goal is to keep her, keep her with me forever. That's it.
"Okay" she smiles.
"Plus I thought you could buy some new stuff to take with you" I suggest.
"Ohhh are we going shopping again after this" she smiles.
"If you like?" I say kissing her lips.
She smiles. I love making her smile, it's my goal. I want to erase all of her fears and upset. I want to make her smile at every minute of the day and all through the night. I casually brush her lip with my thumb and she kisses it, grazing it with her lips.
"You have the most perfect smile" I say to her. Her cheeks flush and I sigh unable to stop looking at her.
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