***Taylors POV***
"How many times have we made love today" I sigh looking over at him.
"Four times counting that one just now" he laughs.
"We have a serious problem if I come off the pill" I laugh back not thinking.
He turns to face me looking at me seriously and my tummy sinks sure I've said the wrong thing.
"How are you feeling about all of that" he asks.
I had a miscarriage last year with Matty. It was tough, for both of us. Ironically I found a lot of comfort in Jay at the time.
"I don't know Jay, I said it as in if we were to be like that" I say for lack of a better word.
"Then we would probably end up pregnant pretty quickly" I say. There I said the p word. I watch his face, reading his emotions. Expecting pure shock and worry.
"Just an FYI I fully get that you could become pregnant at any time. No contraception is 100 percent. So that's definitely something I've thought about" he says and he used the p word too. I'm proud of him.
"It's something that however if it were to just happen would be totally great by me. Whichever way you would want to go with that I would support you" he says hands on my hips.
I kiss him.
"You're so utterly perfect. I mean I'm not insinuating that I come off the pill or whatever but when that option is more viable and we both want and are ready for that then my love you and I would not have any problem" I tell him.
He kisses me back pulling me into him.
"You're so cute" he chuckles. I snuggle into his chest ready to spend the whole night there.
As I'm finally drifting off, I feel his hands stroking my tummy and caressing me and I'm pulled back into consciousness.
"Jay baby I love you" I tell him.
"I love you too my love" he smiles down at me.
"You've never stroked me there before" I whisper smiling.
"Hmmm" he says smiling back hazily.
"You are my world, my past and my present and my future" he says gazing down at me.
"Rolled all into one, I am beyond fucking lucky to have you" he says.
I begin kissing his chest and stroking his back at the same time.
He laughs softly.
"Did you know before when you were taken I used to dream about you ever single fucking night Taylor. And I would wake up and realise that you weren't mine, had never been and the feeling was so devastating. It's probably why I was such and unimaginable dickhead. I'm sorry for that" he laughs.
I laugh into his chest and look up again into his eyes.
"Okay okay I dreamed about you more than once. Not going to lie. I had all of the feelings but I was so busy focusing on not liking you. If that makes sense? I thought how dare you come along and charm me, and make me feel for you? But either way I'm glad it turned out the way it did between us. I need you, and I'm gonna need you forever so sorry if you had other plans" I say smiling up at him.
"Forever Mrs Scott?" He says sighing looking at me a huge grin on his face. So we're technically engaged.
"Forever Mr Scott " I say smiling at him.
He pulls my body into his and kisses my forehead.
"I promise Taylor I will keep you safe forever. I will cherish you and I will worship your body for the rest of my days." He says and smiles down at me. We fall asleep in each other's arms kissing until we are worn out. I cant wait too wake up so that I can kiss him and exist with him in our life together.
***
The sun shines through the blinds. I can hear the birds, the gulls that tend to come in the morning. I can sense Jay next to me, his chest and the feel of his warm skin on mine. His hands on my lower tummy, holding it up slightly to relieve the pressure.
He says something in his seductive low voice which I can't decipher. I'm busy looking down at the baby bump. The priority for me to keep safe and nurture. I place my hand on his and he sighs smiling at me.
"Feeling okay" he says in my ear.
I look at him his blonde hair and blue eyes and imagine our little baby. Our baby with blonde hair and chubby little hands. He disagrees with me of course, hoping that the baby will look like me. He explains that I'm the perfect one. And that my genes better be more dominant than his in his "little girl". I'm unsure of the gender. I wanted to know and then I didn't.
"Everything's perfect" I tell him. He continues holding me and I feel relief from him holding just some of the babies weight up for me.
"Moving like a dancer in there" I laugh feeling the flutters.
He begins murmuring a tune which he usually does whilst he's trying to soothe both of us. I lean into him appreciating everything he does for us. His hands flat on my bump feeling his baby moving into his hands.
"I love you both" he whispers to us.
***
I wake up slowly feeling Jay next to me, it's still dark in the room and I stare at the moon outside. What is it with me, one mention of the word pregnancy and I'm dreaming about it. I've already dreamed up our baby with blonde curls, blue eyes, chubby hands and a dimpled chin.
I snuggle further into Jays warmth trying not to wake him. Yet also desperately wanting him too wake up and give me attention and touch me. I want his hands. I stroke his back, rubbing him and he sighs with appreciation. Dreaming like that just deepens my connection with him. I wonder what he's dreaming about as I touch him.
"Taylor" he sighs sleepily.
"Right here" I say kissing his lips.
He moans and wraps his arms around me. Pulling me closer and giving me his sole attention. Whatever did I do to deserve this beautiful guy who loves to touch me and kiss me all the time.
Something special is happening between us.
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