Desire me - the third novel ****editing

Chapter 56- Ella

After dance Jay is waiting for me. I smile over at him strolling up to him in just my leotard as I haven't changed yet.
He places his hands on either side of my waist and smiles.
"hmm that's not fair, seeing you like this and not being able to do anything about it" he sighs.

"I'll change quick" I say and kiss his lips.

He strokes me as I leave and my body feels like it's on fire.

When I've finished changing I check my phone and realise I have a text from Matty.
'Sorry for what happened with A earlier. You do not deserve that. I meant everything I said, I love you and thanks for our chat' he's put.

I reply quickly.
'Thanks for helping me with my stuff, I'm glad we talked. I'll see you soon Matty' I leave it at that. He's not playing fair telling me he loves me.

I walk out and see Jay talking with Nate and Rach and smile. I do want everything to work out right for Rach. I want her to find somebody that loves her, just as much as she loves them. Somebody that's right for her. I hope that person is Nate, but I'm not too sure. In fact I'm completely against it being him but we will see.

"Hey" Rach says to me smiling.

"Hey" I smile back and give her a hug. We start walking out first in front of the guys. They follow behind us talking. Actually talking to each other is a good step after the fights they had before, over Nate's stupid remarks.

"So how did this happen?" I say smiling at her.

"Nate is different" she smiles. Oh dear, she likes him a lot.

"I don't think it's too serious yet. But I like him a lot" she sighs.
I gathered that already.

"How's you and Jay" she asks.

I smile over at her.

"I'm in trouble. I'm in love with him" I say.

"He is different with you" she comments.

"Much more possessive and focused. And actually nice" she says laughing.

Rachel could easily hate me. I've given her enough reason. I dated Matty the guy she liked, and then when we broke up I got with Jay her ex. So the fact that we are friends is a testament to how mature we are. How much we actually like each other to see past these things.

"Aria? Who is she?" I say remembering her immature bitchy behaviour.

"Stupid bitch" she replies laughing.

"Honestly though if you get lucky like that and a guy like Matty showed you attention" she says without thinking.

"Well yeah it's Matty. That's all I mean. Any girl he happens to show just a little bit of attention falls." She sighs.

"He was mean to her, like he used to be." She says.

I'm just listening I want to know everything. I shouldn't but I do.

"All over her and then nothing." She sighs.
"He's an accident waiting to happen" she laughs.
"However there is a party Friday ?" She says.

"I'm with Ross at a show" I say and she raises her eyebrows.
"I bought him tickets for Christmas" I add.

"That one cannot look at other girls" she says
"I tried him, Ross and I have never. But he's gorgeous. What is he like? You know?" She smiles cheekily.

I smile a little remembering it.

"I did have to force myself on him, if I remember I just climbed in his bed naked. He was possessive, very very intense. Really close, and his is also wow" I say blushing.

"Ohh jealous" she sighs.

"He's getting a tattoo. On his leg" I say smiling

"Something tribal" I say

"Oh he never said. I ugh tried to talk to him at the party but he was busy pushing advances away. Girls love him, he's decent." She says and I nod.

"I wish he would find somebody" I say.

"He's not looking though is he? He's completely preoccupied with you. Since you guys met" she sighs. 

"Don't, I have no idea what to do about him" I say and she smiles.

"That's not something you can change. I've been in his position. In love with somebody who's with somebody else. And no matter what they do you will love them" she says and I realise she's right.

"Anyway that I try to push him away he's always there" I say.

We reach the car park and I hug her. They seem to be heading off to my dorm and we get back in the car. I'm pondering the dynamics of each relationship. Deep in thought gazing out of the windshield. Matty has made it clear he loves me. He's open and he's there. However he's also not going to just wait anymore. He will entertain other women, weirdly I wonder if they had sex in our old bed. I stop that thought before it eats me up.

Ross is completely different and I don't understand why. He doesn't look at other girls, he actively turns down girls. We haven't really been an item but he acts like we are.

Jay, I'm beginning to think has the ultimate control over things. He has me, all of me. When I'm with him I cant think about anything else or anybody else.

"What's up" he says as he's driving.

"Who was that girl earlier Jay" I ask just coming out with it
"After psychology" I add.

He smokes and takes a breath.
"That is my cousin, Ella. We kept it really low profile. It links into my surprise so don't be silly" he laughs looking at me. I do feel relieved.

"Any other secret cousins you wanna tell me about?" I laugh.
"You think you know someone" I sigh sarcastically.

"No that's it." He says.
"Literally nobody knows. We both wanted that and I respect that she didn't want everybody to know we are related after all I'm such a monster" he laughs.

I begin to wonder what the surprise could be.
"You're not a monster. I love you" I say stroking his thigh.

"Taylor you're going to like this surprise. I love you" he smiles mischievously.
"But you're gonna have to let me work on it a bit until it's all set in place" he says glancing over at me.

When we reach the lake house we have dinner together and I can't help but to wonder what the surprise might be. After dinner we share some wine and then he ends up carrying me up to bed kissing me on the way there. The relief I feel at having him back and with me, even though it's only been a day is immense. He takes over all of my senses, all of my thoughts until I am consumed by him.

I fall asleep, dreams filled with his blonde hair and blue eyes. Realising that the girl who he had been talking too, now I know her name is Ella, looked just like him.