I gaze down at the light blue skirt I'm wearing watching the sunlight play on it reminding me that spring is very much here. Feeling the light breeze working it's way into the car and sending my hair back over my shoulder. I look out at the trees we are passing, eager to see the familiar lake on our horizon. Our place, our secret house, the place where we will make our future.
Jay has put some music on and he's smoking a cigarette out the window his arm resting on the side of his door. The 4x4 is much heavier on our way back as we managed to pack everything into it. I'm going to give the key back tomorrow and be done with my little single dorm room that gave me space and independence for a short time.
I glance over at him, he's got his shirt off still and his nipple ring is distracting me. In many ways we have grown up together over the last three years. When Jay met me I was still trying to work out what I wanted. He showed me what I needed in my life, time and time again, I tried to deny him and push him out but he persisted and now we're here cruising down the freeway in the sun, wind blowing through our hair on the way to officially move in together.
"No cold feet" he says smiling over at me.
"Definitely not my love" I tell him stroking his thigh. I want to kiss him, I want to throw my arms around him but he is driving. He smiles passing me a cigarette.
"So I'm gonna show you how good I am at assembling furniture and swearing" he laughs.
"Jay you're good at everything, especially when you do those things shirtless" I retort.
He laughs out loud. Eyeing his chest briefly.
"I have tried hard for these gains" he smiles.
"Oh baby I would even love you if you were round and fat" I say smiling.
"Ah thanks baby" he scoffs.
"Well with your cooking" he smiles over at me.
"I'm going to take care of you" I smile. And I mean it. I'm going to be the kind of girlfriend that makes sure her partner is happy and secure. I could have been better previously in my relationships and it's definitely something that I want to work on. I must be watching him intently because he eyes me skeptically.
"What is it ?" He asks.
"Jay I love you. You. I want you to be sure of that. I love who you are. I'm completely in love with you, I throw my caution away when I'm with you" I say seriously.
"My love, that means so much to me. I'm going to treat you perfectly, I love you so fucking much" he sighs. We laugh slightly at each other, at the incredulousness of us moving in to a lake house together.
"I think champagne is definitely the correct option for us tonight. And Chinese" I say happily. Imagining us by the fire together watching the tv and the lake.
"Yes good idea, we definitely have enough glasses too" he smiles looking over at me.
I know we're near when out of my passenger window I can see the lake flowing past, the road is elevated with dense forest on Jays side.
"I love how excited you get every time we are here" he laughs.
"It's pretty" I smile back.
"Feels like home" I say to him and he grasps my thigh.
He parks in the garage and I suddenly remember all of the stuff we've got to lift to get into the house. He walks me in holding a few boxes which he puts upstairs for me to start organising. I linger in front of him before he leaves. He cups my jaw in his hand and kisses me. One hand travelling up my thigh.
"I'm coming back" he whispers, kisses me again and then he's gone to get more stuff.
I begin sorting through my stuff most of which are clothes that I either fold or hang up. Some of which I bin. I work through two boxes very quickly then Jay reappears with two more.
"I've got everything else in" he smiles placing the boxes down. I take in his muscular frame and sigh.
"Fancy dinner" he asks nicely.
I smile at him close the distance between us and kneel in front of him. Pleasing him and making him feel secure starts here. I undo his belt and his hands are in my hair. I yank his jeans down and his boxers to see he's already hard. I rub him a little first and he sighs. I begin kissing him down there before taking him in my mouth.
"Fuck" he gasps.
"Mmm baby" he sighs losing himself and I smile.
His hands find my jaw and stroke me.
"Let me do you at the same time" he gasps. I suck it all the way to the tip as I pull him out then I stand up. He eyes me seriously and pulls my thong down from under my skirt.
He guides me to the bed.
"You wanna sit on top" he asks lounging back.
Before I allow myself to think about it I sit in line with his mouth and take him in my mouth again.
I begin sucking him again feeling him doing the same to me. And quite honesty I've never felt anything like it.
"Mm Jay" I say under my breath.
He kisses me down there.
"I love you" he says sucking and licking me.
"I love you" I say gasping.
"Please come for me" he sighs.
Like this? I think. I've not done this before. That's the thing about him he lets me explore, he pushes just enough so that I stretch my boundaries. It feels like heaven. I let go and so does he. I climb off of him completely spent.
He grabs towels and water and I laugh.
"First time I've done that" he smiles.
"Me too" I say.
"I'm happy we share some firsts, you're so much more experienced than me" I smile blushing.
"Oh Taylor you are a first for me in many ways" he smiles stroking my hair.
"Like..." I say.
"Like you're the first person I've been in love with. The first person I've shown to my mum. The first girl I've ever lived with. And most importantly you are the love of my life" he says kissing my forehead. I sigh looking at him, blue eyes that I once could have sworn were cold and calculating now replaced by eyes that hold happiness, joy and love.
"How did I become so lucky" I laugh.
"I'm the lucky one" he laughs tickling me.
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Desire me - the third novel ****editing
Romance"I'm a bad girl. He is gazing at me in his car, I imagine our relationship and it flashes before me through my mind. He's drop dead gorgeous, and how I can even manage to stop touching him is truly remarkable. He's handsome in a true and honest way...
