"Darling, we need to prepare for the banquet."
"Five more minutes...." You mumbled back to Loki, snuggling further into his chest.
"You said that twenty minutes ago, up, up."
You groggily opened your eyes, staring up at his face.
Loki raised his eyebrows. "What, am I that interesting?"
"I'm trying to preserve and commit this moment to memory so I can be happy forever." You said concentrating.
He chuckled in response, leaning in to kiss the crown of your head. Never would you have guessed that he constantly needed physical touches and acts of love. "Our clothes are on the table, and the bathroom is adjacent to this room, just through that door."
You smiled, still laying lazily atop him, your hand caressing the index finger of his hand. It was such an intimate gesture, yet felt so natural.
Finally prying you off, Loki snapped and both of you were dressed in an instant.
Exiting, you two engaged in a comfortable silence on the way to the banquet hall, striding side by side and connected by your entwined fingers.
You felt a pang of loss as you two passed a mother and her daughter, heading to the banquet as well, arm in arm. It felt as if a dagger had stabbed you in the heart, twisted it, and then killed it as it beat its last. You were struggling to take in breaths, almost reliving the moments, and being washed over in grief.
She's gone, and it's all your fault. You couldn't save her, you couldn't even kill her killer! Your weak, pathetic, a loathsome piece of the universe that no one wanted. Your parents abandoned you. Your brothers abandoned you. Your new family, your new brothers, and sisters will abandon you two when it time comes. A little voice inside of you muttered. After all, it was true. You weren't enough to keep Mordo or Kaecilius put. Your chest constricted, as you thought ultimate question. Am I good enough to deserve to exist? I'm so worthless. No one wants me. I could just end it all and be reborn whenever time deems I'm fit. I could just end it all.......
You felt a soft kiss brush your knuckles as you were pulled away from your thought.
"What's on your mind, m'lady," Loki said, concern clouding his eyes. You still haven't left your mind barrier down, it seemed to always be up.
"Just worried for the banquet," You lied.
Loki let out an unsatisfied, "hm" as if to say we will revisit this later.
You bother entered the banquet hall, and your eyes hurt from all the gold shining in your face. "Is there seriously only one metal in this place?" You said, jesting a little.
"I'm afraid so, my darling. I can tell you miss the green of the garden already," He smirked, looking at your face. You just harumphed in response.
"Let's just get this over with."
~~~
You were drunk. So drunk. Drunk drunk drunnnnnnnk~
Ok, so you weren't a hundred percent. It wasn't your fault you have been so nervous approaching the court, or when Loki announced your courtship. Or was it? You giggled. Then you started to cry.
Loki looked over at you panicked. "Are you fine, Y/n?"
"Would you still love me if I were a worm?" You said tearing up. Loki just sighed in response. "I knew it! You would hate me!" You burst into tears.
"Looks like you've a problem on your hand, little brother," Thor said, trying to hold in his laughs. Addressing you, he said, "Don't you think worms deserve the equal amount of love as us, future sister? They are just living beings like us."
You sniffled, "See, this is why I like Thor. Maybe HE should be my partner in crime."
Loki shot Thor a pointed glare as he lead you away from the table. "You wouldn't want that, Thor is loud and unsneaky." He replied, almost teasing as he booped your nose.
"But Thor would love me if I was a worm." You insist.
"Your drunk, lets's get you to bed."
"What? Me? Drunk? Nooooooooo. Why'd you think that?" With that, you keeled over and threw up right on the golden floor. "Ok, so maybe I'm just an ennie weenie bit sick." You said as Loki cleaned up your mess with a wave of his hand.
By the time you reached your chambers, You were in tears again.
"Darling, don't fret, I would still love you if you were a worm. I swear it. I've never loved and I might be bad at it, but with you, I'm willing to try."
"Itsh not that." You said, turning your head away from Loki as you pouted, tears streaming down your face.
"What is it?"
"It's my fault she's gone."
"Whose gone?"
"My mother. My brothers. My birth parents. They all didn't want me, and they all didn't think I was good enough to stay in this world. And I wasn't strong enough to keep them here." You hiccuped, as Loki stripped his cloak off your shoulders where he had placed it earlier that evening. He undid the buckles of your shoes, and transported a nightgown don't your body, before standing up and looking you in the eye.
"Don't ever think that. You are worthy, strong, intelligent, stubborn and more. You are worth a thousand hearts even if they are undeserving. You are, and will always be, worth it. You are the most valuable person in the universe. Even in another, I would still love you the same. Never think you aren't worth the fight. Because you are."
You studied his face, sniffling the last tears away. "So even though I'm a worm, you still love me?"
"Yes darling," Loki said, preparing to leave your chambers.
"Where are you going?" You said, tucked in underneath the covers, which was Loki's doing. "Please don't leave me like the others. Stay."
Loki sighed and snapped on his own nightclothes. He clambered into the bed next to you, and sighed again. "Only for one night." He promised no one.
You had already fallen asleep, curled into his chest, ears falling asleep to the beat of his heart. You found heat radiating off the ice prince, and found comfort in that.
Loki stayed awake a while longer, stroking your hair, and savoring every detail. He bent down and placed a soft kiss on the crown of your head. He wondered if he was making the right choice.
Another thought plagued his mind. Would he ever be able to tell you he loved you when you were actually sober?
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A/N: Fluff, fluff, fluff, fluff. How are you my stars? Sorry for the gap between posting, my midterms were coming up and they were so stressful. So.....would you love me if I were a worm?
~Love from the stars beyond~
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