I choose love!

~*Chapter 1*~

AN: This book may be trash, but I have writer's block like crazy. And these ideas were in my head so you all will just have to tell me if it's any good or not.
Louis' house ⬆️
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*Harrys's POV*
"Harry I know you're upset about moving, but your father and I couldn't stand by and let you get bullied for who you are," my mum says not taking her eyes off the road.

"Mum pull over for a second," I tell her. Making her look at me confused, but pulls over. "Mum, you don't understand," I tell her taking a deep breath.

"What do you mean?" She ask. "Mum, the main reason I never told you about the bullying is because I know you. I didn't want you uprooting your and dad's lives just because of me. I mean where I'm graduating early I'm fixing to graduate anyways. I could of stuck it out, and you all wouldn't of had to leave you lives back in Holmes Chapel," I cry.

"HARRY EDWARD STYLES!!" She yells making me jump. "NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL AND BE BULLIED, JUST OF BECAUSE OF WHO THEY ARE," she says.

"Honey yes if I would have known sooner we would have moved sooner if the school couldn't have done something to stop it. And honey it's the middle of February theirs no way I would have let you deal with it until the end of year. It kills me everyday that I was so busy working I didn't notice. That's something I'll never forgive myself for. But honey the fact that we're moving is not your fault at all if anything it's the guys that put you in the hospital," she says wiping my tears.

"But mum Louis and I aren't the same as we used to be we've grown apart," I tell her not telling her what I think the real reason is. "Honey that's just where we lived away I'd say by the time our house is ready to move in it'll be like no time has passed," she says with a smile.

"How long are we staying with Jay?" I ask her. "About 3 weeks ,that's when our house will be ready, and your dad will bring our stuff down," she tells me, I give her a forced smile. I know Louis doesn't want to see me, much less me living with him and going to the same school. I feel sick.

"So are we ok?" She ask me. "Yeah," I lie as she pulls back on the road.

Louis and I used to be really close inseparable some would say , but I came out to him before I did my parents and the way he acted wasn't the best. I mean he didn't straight out say he hated gays or anything, but when I got back to Holmes Chapel he wouldn't return my txt or anything.

I've not talked to him in two month. It hurts so bad because the reason I told him first is because I thought we had something special and I have the biggest crush on him. I was hoping when I told him I was gay he'd say something like "me too and I have a crush on certain person with curly hair." But that's stupid nobody as pretty as Louis would want me.  When we pull up to Louis' I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

*Louis' POV*
"Mum I still don't understand why their staying here,"I tell her fixing the sheets on the bed. "Louis because Anne is one of my best friends. Plus Harry's had a hard time. I don't understand what the big deal is you and Harry used to best friends," She says.

"Yeah, I found out somethings I don't wanna associate myself with his kind anymore," I tell her making her mouth drop.

"LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON!!" She yells. "What mum he's not normal," I shrug. "LOUIS I DID NOT RAISE YOU LIKE THAT!! I CAN NOT BELIEVE YOU! LOVE IS NOT  A FOOKING CHOICE! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO THINK OF YOU RIGHT NOW! GO TO YOUR ROOM UNTIL THEY GET HERE, AND WHEN THEY GET HERE YOU BETTER BE NICE!" She yells as I stomp out of the room.

Why does he have to stay here? When he told me he was gay I knew it was gonna make it that much harder to stop these feelings I have every time I see him. I know my mum and family would accept me, but I've got a reputation to uphold.

I'm captain of the football team, and if I do say so myself my friends and I are pretty popular. If I came out as gay it would ruin that. Plus theirs bullies I should know I'm not proud to say it but I'm one of them.

I had to do something to throw people off that I'm gay. So I started dating one of the popular girls Eleanor. Gosh she's so annoying. And bullying Niall and Liam who are openly gay.

When I heard a car pull up I felt my stomach drop and my heart speed up. I hurried and grabbed a towel and got in the shower. Maybe I can do this. I mean maybe I won't have to spend time with him.

I can take a shower and go straight to bed,footie practice will help,so I think I can do it. I'll set my clock in the morning a little later than usual and just say I woke up late. Maybe I won't have to spend time with him at least not alone. I honestly hate who I am, I'm gay but to fooking scared to come out. I'm such a fooking wimp.

Even on the slight chance Harry ever liked me back I don't deserve him. I can't let myself get close to him.

"Hey Lou I want you downstairs when you get out," my mum says knocking on the door. "Mum, please my heads killing me," I lie holding back tears.

"Whatever Louis all I can say is I hope the boy I raised finds his way back to us," she says walking off. Making me break I start bawling I stay in the shower a good hour crying until the water was cold.

I know my mum is disappointed in me and I do plan on coming out when I go to college. It's just that when I got these feelings for Harry finally sorta out I was already pretty popular because of footie plus theirs other and worse bullies than me and my friends.

We really just push them and call them names. The other guys will actually hit them. I realize what I'm doing is still bad, and to be honest I'm ashamed of myself, but somehow my need to be accepted out weights me being ashamed. To be honest I'm still very confused I know that I like some one that society is gonna down me for. Hell I may love Harry we've not talked in two months, and in those two months I've cried everyday at some point he never leaves my mind.

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